today went to sinch house to bake cookies!
marvin, gen and i had a great time!
first we baked chocolate chip cookies
but we ( actually its gen ) forgot to put in 1 cup of sugar!
so it was very healthy!
we made a sinch cookie and a shireen cookie!
and after it baked,
it looked HORRIBLE!
BUT!
we are not selling them!
sooooo,
we baked a second batch with the help of auntie ( sinch's mum )
its chocolate chip cookies!
with the suagr and extra coco powder
it turned out nice!
just that it stuck together and we had to cut them apart
that explains the weird shape!

anyway half way through,
marvin purposely put some of the cookie mixture on my face
so that he could have my seat
so EVIL!
that started the putting flour on the hands and face war!
gen didnt participate
and she even said we were like sec 1s so childish

then for the last batch we made lots of PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES!
sooo nice!
the mixture was damn gross at first cause marvin mixed it!
haha but in the end it turned out nice nice!
even the shape is nice!
almost perfect round shape.
see practice makes perfect!

so we are selling the cookies on sunday!
everyone who is from ARPC who happened to read this post
please come and buy
we will be near the staircase outside the hall!
and donate too!
its for the Yme team going to thailand!

peanut butter cookies and chocolate chip cookies!!

just came back from TNYF camp!
its the last ever camp cause TNYF is joining with PUNJ!
anyway camp was nice!

my group people were
luke lim :
he was the group leader but a little blur at some times. and ... he is my COUSIN!
ashley :
something surprising she is my COUSIN too! so the 3 of us are cousins!
casper :
super cute and super hyper!
kelly :
a little attitude problem and didnt really bond well with group
jay sen :
stupid little thing nothing else to say
daniel :
chicken face! haha keeps disturbing me argh!
jason :
kawaii! keeps shoing the "V" sign! super funny too!
ju lih :
a little quiet but disturbed me a little too!
joshua :
helped me a lot along the way but kept helping daniel irritate me
natalie :
nice nice! haha kept helping me and put up with my nonsense!
deborah :
sec 4! super nice and takes a lot of initiative

we won the AMAZING RACE 3!
so happy spent a lot of time bonding!
lazy to type out everything so if you want to find out you can ask me!

okay wanna go and sleep!
tired!

BUT!
just wanna say this to charis and natalie.
thanks for all the fun times and sharing we had at camp!
thanks for putting up with my nonsense
and taking care of me!
really appreciate!

charis can you ask natalie to read this?
thanks!

HEYHEY!
ms clare ng siah ng made me guess blog.
you know why?
cos she's too lazy to update it herselfxD
anyway, i don't even know what to blog about.
hmmm..
i guess clare will be very busy at camp this wk.
and, i have no idea what else she has.
ohh, i'm missing amazing race.
i'll be a good girl and go for BAND camp!
(((((:
so i'll see you at yf camp!

ohhkay ive not posted for like 2 weeks.
anyway today i went to watch step up with marion lee
and i assure its a very very nice show!
im going to buy the disk when someone takes pity on me and gives me money!
anyway marion lee was LATE!
she told me to meet her at west mall at 4.30pm
but she just left her house at that time
i wonder if she can tell the time

after movie went to eat burger king
talked alot
and i realised something
marion can eat very very fast!
like a garbage disposal!
haha
heard that miss moron lee?

i shant post about what i saw at west mall that was very disgusting
if you wanna know
ask marion
haha
soooo gross!
its not for underaged kids to know
haha

gotta go
promised to play dota with my friend
bye!

hello everyone! do you know what is the word of the day / month / century?
its PISSED!
woohoo! and do you know another fascinaing fact?
miss marion lee has only 2 words in her vocabulary!
and the 2 words are... PISSED and ______! haha!
the second word is confidential cause i may not be able to keep my head if i typed that out! hahahaha!

yesterday i ponned service and came only for yf.
thats because i didnt feel well.
yup i didnt feel well.
anyway when i reached yf nothing much happened.
only about the tee-shirt design for the camp.
i hope its okay.
anyway after yf went KFC with moron lee ( marion ) and hanmae.
i laughed alot there.
i think KFC has alot of laughing gas there.
anyway went home and slept.
didnt feel well. haha!

okay gotta go.
wanna go eat duck rice liao.
very very hungry.
im soo gona put on alot of weight during the hols.
but i dont care! haha!
bye!

okay im damn sianed out. i dont know what is happening. but all i know is that when im with my friends im very happy and when im not with them i feel very sad and lonely and empty. why is it like that? i feel that im quite lucky good parents, super duper nice friends ( including you marion lee ). but i dont know why everytime when i laugh, deep down in my heart i feel very empty and lonely. hmmm is something missing from my life? ive got everything i think i need. wells whoever reads this can you help me? please? im seriously dying i need someone to talk to. haii.

everytime i ask my friends " ehh what to do? im sooo bored" they will say " bored ah? take subutex lo" haha thats damn last century. wells i think it is. anyway i dont take subutex for the gods sake haha. i write this doesnt mean i take this thing. haha im drug-free! maybe except for my medication haha. gotta go dont feel well and stupid bro is bugging me. i seriously hate him. argh.

today was a really freaky day. and you know what? i dont know why it is freaky. met marion to go to cine to watch a movie. but in the end ended up waiting for the 2 idiots chris and gabriel chee. then when they came they didnt want to watch a movie. how freaking nice can they get? then they went to eat long john's okay fine. nevermind after that we were deciding what to do. so we left cine and walked dunno where all thanks to miss moron lee ( marion ). anyway then that gabriel chee just left like that. anyway moving on, marion chris and i went to walk to the busstop. on the way there we ( chris and i ) made marion lee soooo freaking pissed. hahahahaha! omgomg that felt sooo good to piss her off. then on the bus to forgot where marion got pissed again. she kept saying " omg im so freaking pissed." come on how pissed can you get? hahahaha! marion is such an idiot. in the end chris went home and marion came to my house. at my house she didnt do anything! AMAZING! she just sat there and smsed her dear. haha. what a very nice day and in the end i didnt get to watch my movie cause of the pink one chris and gabriel chee. grrrr. I WANNA WATCH A MOVIE!

i want someone to go watch the show THE PRESTIGE ( i think its spelt like that ). but nobody wants to watch the show with me. its a nice show! haha someone go with me! haha.

~ cant believe you just walked away just like that ~

Hello readers of Clare aka De Pig
Donkey is here to post fer her
donkey aka=)
hahaz she ask mi to post fer her
okizz so lazy man!! hahaz
hmm new skin veri cute
BUT not cuter den the ones i found fer u
anywayzz we are frenz once again!!=)
thx to all frenz who were happi that we were frenz again
couple of dayz ago i went out wif pig to bugis.plaza sing.& some other places
omg walking walking & more walking!!!my legs could have died
dunno abt clare's??hahaz
oh yaa she bathing now...AHAHAHa
im serious she is bathing now
err i dunno wat to write though
ohh yaa i call her pig
she call mi donkey
den shortform fer donkey is donk
so short form fer pig is....
pee!!hahaz
den after tt she keep typing bonkbonk.zonkzonk.tonktonk.u get wat im saying right
so im lik seesee.peepee.beebee.deedee.teetee hehehe
okizz im done fer now & will leave yall wif our neoprints
oo yaa i kinda spoilt de neoprints wen we took de second time
too lazy to elaborate=pp
& here dey aree

& i offered to help clare link ppl
so clare thanks me fer helping her.
ur welcome clare/pig/pee

okay im seriously in need of a new blogskin. haha this cookie blogskin is pissing me off haha. its sooo gross. hahaha i love cookies but i must be out of my mind to really choose this haha. anyway very sianed out cause i miss school ALREADY! haha yeah i do miss school. haha. -_-"'

to =) : im very willing to do anything to get us back together as friends. all the times we spent as friends. those times will never be replaced! sooo forgive me? haha and be my friend? i want to see your new SLIPPERS! haha and maybe we will go out during the hols! for shopping! OMG did i just say shopping? hahahaha im growing mad mad mad! hahahahahaha BOOORED!

im so bored so i plan to fall asleep now. since darrel the dead is not replying me. who cares about him. i asked him out of concern for my big bro and he doesnt even want to reply me. such a good bro. haha anyway i bet he has his reasons! he better have. OR ELSE.....

this is the bestest class i could ever have. all the times we got scolded as a class and praised as a class. even though there were broken relationships and friendships we were still the closest class. after 2 years together i hope when we come together the bonds we have now will still be the same. This is to the people of 2e3!

The best of friends,Can change a frown,Into a smile,when you feel down.

The best of friends,Will understand,Your little trials,And lend a hand.

The best of friends,Will always share,Your secret dreams,Because they care.

The best of friends,Worth more than gold,Give all the love,A heart can hold.


got a few things to write about the people who made my life in school a very enjoyable time.

to the best "brother" i ever had , Keefe : you were the friend i always wish i had. we had many
things in common. that was what made us so close like sibilings. but there is one thing we in. you are smarter and are going to a better class. when i heard you say you would transfer to my class if we werent in the same class that really touched my heart. thanks for all the laughter and fun times we had together!

to the " mummy" i had, Yu wei : we are totally the opposite but still we were the best of friends. thanks for all the free tissues you reluctantly gave me. and all the funny faces you made when i was very sad. thanks for cheering me up! i felt so relieved when you told me that you werent going to switch school. hope next year we will be in the same class! haha then i can disturb you for 2 more years!

to the "egg" that can never crack , Iqbal : thanks for all the times when you nagged at me. thanks for stopping me from doing many many stupid things. haha like getting into fights and doing many rash things. even though you are irritating at times i will all cherish those times when we had good laughs. thanks for all the good things you have thought me! next year you will be going to a better class! work hard!

to the biggest biggest friend and "bro" i have , Royston : thanks for being like a punching bag taking all my insults and teasing. in my whole life i will never find such a caring and gentle guy like you. even though you are like a SUPER DUPER SUMO, you will forever be my friend! you are going to a different class! but remember to work hard! and prove people wrong! i ahve faith in you!

I LOVE 2e3!!!

crap la i have to do this stupid questionaire thingy. stupid pearlyn tan! haha anyway on account of our many years of friendship i shall do it! im sooo nice!

1. Single, taken or crushing?
- crushing. but still unsure
2. Are you happy with ur life now?
- yup yup except for sometimes
3. When you meet the person,will u fall for him or her fast?
- not so fast. but if that person appeals to me then maybe
4. Have you had ur heart broken?
- yes around 1 time only la
5.Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
- nope! once you cheat on me! i will kick that person down the stairs
6. Would u talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
- as a friend yes. because i already kicked that person down the stairs
7. Have u talk to another person about marriage before?
- dont think so. haha im still young!
8. Do want children?
- yes they are uber cute! i want a cat too!
9. How many?
- hmm.. haha depends on the person i marry lo
10. Would u consider adoption?
- maybe, maybe not
11. If someone likes u right now, what do u think to let him/her know ur feelings?
- if that is the person im crushing on then maybe otherwise nope nope
12. Do u enjoy in getting in relationship?
- haha dont know. its nice to have someone by your side
13. Be honest. What u and ur ex did?
- nothing at all... still young
14. Do u believe in love at first sight?
- nope. i will always want to know the person better
15. Are u romantic?
- haha dont know. all i know that im damn crap la
16. Do u believe u can change someone?
- hmm. yes i believe! haha try try try lo
17. If u could marry someone, where would it be?
- in my currant church where i have been for 14 years
18. Do u easily give in when u are fighting?
- haha NEVER! i love to fight! haha joking joking
19. Do u have feelings for someone right now?
- waa what a question. hmm of course i do! haha
20. Have u ever wished u could have someone but u messed it up?
- once when i was between p6 - sec1
21. Have u broken a heart?
- erm to tell the truth not a heart its 2 hearts.
22. One day if ur bestfren fall in love with the person u are deeply in love with?
- i think that happened before. but wells its all about fate!
23. Are u missing someone right now?
- haha yes? almost all the time
Now you have to ask your five friends to do this survey on their blogs.
Write their names below.
Tag them in their blog to let them know and don't stop this survey.
Get started and the five lucky people are:
1. my grandmother
2. my pet cat brat!
3. my bed!
4. anyone la i dont care
5. cause i think it is evil to make ppl do this!

the other day i went ice-skating. soo happy finally mummy will bring me. anyway i met some new idiotic friends who came to me and said " you DIAO my friend isit? " omg i could have walked away laughing. who would diao people like you? nothing better to do. haha anyway i couldnt be bothered so i just went off. haha anyway they started disturbing me. who cares la. they have nothing better to do. so i just be a kind soul and entertain them lo. haha anyway i realised that many of them were from my school. BULLSHIT who cares. i dont care lo. these people cannot study so they come up with some wu liao things to waste their time away. crazy right? haha damn bo liao. enough talking about them waste my energy only.

now exams over and so shuang haha. but so sad that i did not have the courage to talkto vennmuhil. haii i really regret and mummy yu wei is leaving school liao. he is transfering to a scholl in changi. haii gona miss him and all the free tissue he gives haha. anyway 1 more week! 3 cheers! HIP HIP HOORAY! haha. gotta go got an appointment with my korean show haha.

okay this is friggin shit i just lost a whole post and it is like the longest post in my whole blog! GRR im frigging pissed. ANYWAY i shall be non-vulgar and just re-type the whole post patiently. haha. anyway what was i talking about? i really cannot remember. haha ohoh! i remember it was about school!

only ! more week to school! happy happy! haha anyway my results not bad. actually quite good for me. i got 2 As and 6 Bs and finally hah i got i F9 1 is enough yah i got the F from chinese haha! anyway do i look like i care? haha no la i really really do care. haii but watta do? im not smart at all. haha but but i got chosen for the NYAA bronze! yeah! its like recongnised world wide and i got it! hahaha!

omgomg the bestest thing that has happened besides the fact that my school is ending 2 weeks earlier than my bro is... i got the princess hours DVD! and my dear mummy bought it for me it costed a friggin $49.90! hahahaha! im like suffering from KOREAN DRAMA REDRAWAL SYNDROME. haha now i know how my mother felt when she was watching the korean shows. im in love with my trusty portable video player and my princess hours DVD!

im like sooo freeaking lonely. my mum and brother went to a rainforest in malaysia and now im sooo bored. cause the house is so empty without my brother. haha sorta miss him. gosh im going mad. haha. omgomgomg im seriously bored. now i cant find a suitable blogskin. and its really pissing me off. haha.

anyway exams over super long ago. haha. and if you want to know my results ask me. or i will tell you myself. its not good enough to be put here haha. its like super sucky. i studied and then it turns out to be like super sucky haha. im like sooo in deep shit. i cant believe i did so badly. sheesh. argh!!!!!!

okay better stop blogging haha cause in case all the vulgarities in my vocab are going to spill out. haha like *&%#%&* *^%#%*&%$^ *$& *#^ *$&R@^&%#^&^. hahahahhahahaha!!!!!!!!!!1111

WOW WHEE! i finally can use the comp! exams are over FOR ME! haha too bad for those who havent finished. im sure MOE hasnt forgotten about you! haha. anyway feeling darn happy that i can use my beloved comp and i can have a DVD marathon! anyone wants to join me? you are welcome even if you have exams! im sure the markers would be happy for you! haha. anyway going mad with happiness! more posts tmrw! GOODNIGHTS!

clare suck.
she can't update and asked me to help her update.
and me being a nice person.
of course i helped her update.

hmm. to charis.
clare won't be updating for a while.
cos her mom has locked the com up.
am i supposed to say dat clare.
anw. nvr mind.
i'll just wait for you to kill me.

i've known clare since p4.
and i've nvr seen her so serious before.
so its a good thing that she is worried.
and is studying for her eoys.
umm.
i don't know what else to write.
so i'll stop here.

clare.
good luck in your exams yah?
and im sure she would also lyk to tell all her friends.
good luck in their exams.=)
hehes. its pearL who did this post.
so clare.
thank me!

WOOLALA! my dad pierced his ear! haha omg he was like asking is it pain? and i told him no la noit pain one. haha the whole night he was nagging on how painful it was. and now he acts like he is 10 years younger haha. talk about being EGOISTIC. haha

sapphire jie after hearing wat is happening to you and aunty florence im a little scared whether you will choose to come back to singapore or will you stay in canada. i have got many questions for you. like:
1) will you copme back to singapore after you finish studies?
2) will you come back and visit me?
3) will you forget me?

i really dont want you to leave us totally. i will really miss you. a few weeks ago you left for canada and i cried my heart out. as i kept imagining all the worst case senarios that in the end i will not get to see you anymore. jie you are part of my life and i know that you promise me that you will not forget me but i just cant help but worry. jie i really really miss you now. cant wait for you to come back! love you!

BRAVE BEAVER [joy] VS COWARDLY CHIPMUNK(EY) [me!]

sleepover was fun fun fun! there were like thousands of frogs. and 2 times chara, joy, hanmae, kam yan and i spotted 2 frogs swimming in the toilet! that was soooo gross! EWWW! anyway had gross games dont wana talk about it cause too gruesome. the place was like super nice. no furnishing but just super nice and frog infested.

played CRANIUM with chara, hanmae and joy. joy and i one group and chara and hanmae one group. guess who won! your all would have guessed chara and hanmae cause one RGS and the other MGS. but! joy and i won! omgomg cannot believe it. haha. see mixed neighbourhood school oso good lo! hahaha.

devotion was cold and nice. talked about friendships and i realised that i have too many broken friendships in my life. and someone ( name protected for privacy ) told me that the quote sinch gave was very memorable. "true friendship lasts beyond death" so zanny i know you can read this in heaven i hope they have a laptop there! gotta go and sleep now. so darn tired. haha. bye!

~ true friendship lasts beyond death ~ <3>

HELLO CLARE! YOU'LL PROBABLY GET A SHOCK WHEN YOU COME BACK & SEE THIS ON YOUR BLOG. HAHAHA BUT I DON'T CAREEE(: HAHAHA ! i'm reviving your blogg(: you should be GLAAADD :D

Hahah I'm getting obred at home studying & doing nothing else but studying. Hai >< Ohwells. I hope I can get at least 70% overall for my EOYs. Considering I actually bother to go study so early in advance :/ Ohno! ):

Anyway clare, I have no nice pic of you at the moment ): Boo. Ohwells! I shall secretly take one next time & put it up on your blog! Hahaha anyway have a GREEAATTTT time!(: & I shall input info for everyonee here on your blogg(:

Landfill Method
Firstly, the seabed that supporte the sand bund wall needs to be treated and strengthened.
Secondly, the sand is then dumped progressively on top of the treated seabed to form sand bund walla round the area to be reclaimed. Then, a special big vessel sucks up the sea sand from sea.
The sand is then pumped and spread onto the enclosed area till the land is formed above the sae level.
Next, the sand layer is compacted to densify the reclaimed land. The level of the reclaimed land is now above the sea level.
A granite or concrete wall is built around the sand bund to form a retaining structure. This is to prevent erosion of the reclaimed land by the ation of the sea waves.
Finally, trees and other vegetation are grown on the reclaimed land. This is to help prevent soil erosion. After one to five years, the lad is ready for future development such as housing, offices and factories


Theree(: I hope you actually learn it in Geography man! Else it'll be a waste of my time typing that out for youu!(: Hahaha okay, I'm getting back to mugging! <3 Cya!

(guess lahhh)

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE(:

Cheer up ahgirl! :D

im so PISSED OFF, why is life so UNFAIR?

teacher's day was okay. saw friends and many of them grew taller and many grew fatter. but many said i didnt grow fatter nor did i grow taller. met the teachers and all the old memories came back. now miss primary school. no stress, many friends and no unfairness.

i hope that tomorrow i will pass my drill test. its gona be a hard one. after that its the sleepover. not really looking forward to it but have to go. so sick and tired of hearing my friends bitch about me behind my back. cant stand it anymore. help me someone.

i hate YOU, i hate THEM, i hate HER, i hate HIM, i hate EVERYONE!

nothing much to blog and wont be blogging unless i have to mood to. cause everything now SUCKS.

today went for yf and played captains ball with oranges. wells it turned out very good. good job hanmae! for your forst try it was fantastic. haha then had bible study with carol which was okay okay la. went to j8 with marion and hanmae. nothing much la. just found out that my good friend juer is a little or maybe very bimbotic. haha no offence but she is just like that.

i know i dont show it but i really miss you. and i know you cant see it but i hope you know that you will always be my friend.

<3s zanny

i cant believe its your birthday next month and now you are gone. i celebrated it with you every month but now i dont know how to celebrate it when you are not around. i knew you moved to hawaii because you didnt want to suffer in spore. you posted on my blog a few days ago and now you are gone. zanny i love your name. i really dont know why i call u zanny lee when ur full name is sarah lee mei zan(ny). i miss you miss you. u didnt even tell me you were gona leave me. now i have no one to visit when i go to hawaii. i promised you and i said i will work hard to go there. but now you arent there anymore. I MISS YOU!

sarah lee mei zan(ny) thanks for being my hawaiian monkey. i will always be your singapore pipsqueak. forever and ever. remember the promise?

we, clare aka squeak and sarah aka zanny promise to be friends forever and ever and till death do us part.

but i didnt know that death would part us so soon. i wasnt prepared to let you go. even though death has parted us you will still have a place in my heart and no one will replace you i promise. i promise.

STOP IT STOP IT! why must you all make fun of me? i know im short and for you info im super proud of it. you dare to slap me twice summore so hard? wait till i hit you okay! i know i have short hands and you all no need to make fun of me. i hate it! ive had enough everyday im being made fun of. even by girls. do you think its very funny? wells i tell you its NOT! you think it is fun if someone says you are a SLUT and BITCH? how would you feel? HUH?

gotta go cannot take it anymore.

today woke up very late and was not sure whether it was sunday or monday. so anyway got out of bed and realised im like super late for church. but didnt care and left home very late , didnt attend service at all. haha pon it with hanmae. then went up for yf and so pai seh cause i had to do games and wasnt really sure about it. so called hanmae down to help me and she wasnt much of a help. so in the end gab chee came and helped out. haha even if he doesnt read my blog. just wana say thanks guys. haha. after that had bible-study and i said the word - pek chek sooo many times. stress la. haha anyway then had ycom meeting. meeting okay la. next week games sure very good one! i thought of it. but hanmae carrying it out. yf is okay la. just getting a little sian. maybe its because everyone is not enthu enough not even me. haii.

bought my dad a MAGNETIC EARRING haha and he is wearing it now. next week he is going to pierce his ear! hahahaha! my dad sooo cool man! haha maybe except for his stomach haha too big liao. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

~ everytime i see you i wonder if you ever notice me ~

how i wish i was living in a fairytale where there is always is a happy ending. living in a world where there are merfolk everywhere. i just cant believe that im still wishing and watching all those disney shows and fairytales. and acting stupid and wishing that a fairytale will someday happen to me. im sick of this stupid life where nothing is going my way. so everyday im just hoping that something will happen when deep down in my heart i know that it will never happen. wells like people say - A WISH WILL COME TRUE IF YOU JUST BELIEVE. so now im here believing like a 4 year old child that fairytales are true.

been really feeling down these few days. because of school and friends. why arent things working out my way? all i want is for my life to go well. but it just seems like its going the opposite direction. grr.

For a moment I can feel All the dreams I've been dreaming are real Wish my mother could hear it, the sea is my song For a moment, just a moment, I belong

haha im now at royston's house using his comp in his uber nice room. not that the colours are nice or anything just that his room has air-con and he has his own comp. thats like wayyy cool! haha. anyway have not been blogging cause no time and very sian and got lots of problems. wells wat kind of problems is for me to know and for you to wait till i tell you. hahahaha!

school has been sucky cause the guy behind me called - MUMMY YU WEI keeps irritating me. wait till i give him a tight slap then see if he dare to disturb me. then the horse - CALVIN is sooo gay haha he keeps flirting to MUMMY YU WEI. hahahahaha.

tmrw got mocktail competition and i hope i win haii. but maybe not possible cause got many very competitive people. haha just used a BIG word! sooo smart of me. hahaha.

gotta go MUMMY YU WEI is bugging me. i think HE got PMS. hahahahaha. bye!

see, as promised,
i'm back to blog!
wells, before i even start on my work.
sososo, i don't know wht to blog bout.
i'm so bored la.
ANYWAYS,
clare arhh all the best for you err chem paper(?!?! is it chem)
study hard for eoy's kay((:
so smart, gna be smarter then me le.
or have you always been.
hmmm..
cya on sun yeah?
talk to you soon!
loves<3

HELLO CLARE!((:
so long nv update then ask me help you blog.
haha.
ohhwells,
get wells soon yeah?
more like your hand get well soon.
i blog more tmr kay.
i got to do my work!
I LOVE YOU LOTS!<3

YEAH! MARION AND I ARE BACK TOGETHER! ( sounds wrong but i dont care!)

im the happiest shit alive! i finally have my worst nightmare over! yes! thanks darrel ( big bro) for helping me! hahaha! thanks marion for forgiving me!

God Bless! I finally got in! Hehe i think the connection in Hawaii is not very good. Anyway my pipsqueak let me blog for her today. I dont know whats wrong with her because...

1] She likes this guy and not me. CLARE!! Do you know how heartbroken i am? After i left for Hawaii 3 years ago then you started to cheat on me! I remember you were crazy over hopscotch. We used to play it outside our classroom! And all those days we used to share our recess. Miss all those days!

2] She is not working hard enough to earn money to come to Hawaii to see me. So that we can talk under the stars and tan in the sun. She said she WILL one day come to see me. She promised!

CLARE PIPSQUEAK! Listen hard. I miss you so can you quickly come over? Hehe i hope you are not taller than me! Im 165m F.Y.I. And F.Y.I stands for - for your information. Not - fine you iditot! Hehe i just love Clare because of this. She's so dumb! Hehe no offence.

Study hard you pipsqueak and make me proud! If you do well i will declare a public holiday in Hawaii! Hehehehe. So do your best!

This is for you!










I drew this during art! And i think the pump looks like you when you were in primary school!

So long!

With all the heat and sand in Hawaii;
Zanny [ Your Hawaiian Monkey ]

YAY, I GOT IN ! HAHAHA DUMDEEDUM. I'm very the bored lahh. Ah, why isn't anyone going for FOP ?!): Sad Sad Deprivedd! ):

Anyway CLARE , YOU BETTER WORK HARD FOR EOYs so I can get my free lunchh! ((: Yays!

I'll tell you what I want now! I want sharksfin, abalone.. blahblahblah! HAHAHA. No lah, kidding only ! I don't like abalonee ): Yucks. Hahaha

Anyway bye claree! Don't forget your promisee! (: AND GOOD LUCK. STUDY HARDER! TSKTSK. ((:

<3 CHARIS!(:
P.S. I know you love me ! HAHA.

yesterday was " be yourself day " we could wear our own clothes to school! yayy! then i stupidly had a bet with someone that i must wear a SKIRT! and i seldom wear skirts soo i did lo. for the sake of $20. haha im sooo money minded. anyway after that had GB and i just love rachael, nessa, jana, ee tiean and xiao fen. they are all sec 3s and im like sec 2 soo like big sisters! haha i love them!

after that i went out with Joey and she was wearing a skirt and spagetthi stripe! omg la.haha of course i was wearing a shirt and jeans. haha but she broke her heel in the drain. and one heel HAD a heel and the other didnt have hahahaha! so she asked me to help her. and with my smart mind i took the OTHER heel and broke the heel against the wall. now, she has FLATS! hahahaha! im soooo smart! haha!

i was so bored till you finally talked to me

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS

okay fine! im having the exam blues. haiyo! shucks! im having soo much stress! haha but of course people like charis will have more. but... im still having stress!!!!!! YIIIIIIIII!!!!

anyway school has been exams exams and more exams. haha! but the worst part is that i still have to see HER face. haiiyo cannot stand it man. haha after one day... " PIACK!" i smack her face! haha then have to go to girl's home for the second time! haha! i dont care la. girl's home is a nicee place! haha all the girls so nice lo. haha but so sad i only spend one day there. hahahahaha!

SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEPY

are you okay? we have not talked for very long. sorta miss you.

people normally say that fairytales and dreams dont come true. but to me if you really believe, it will come true. im just proud to say that fairytales do happen and i believe in fairytales!

maybe reading too many fairytales have made me go crazy over fairytales. haha its good to think young again! haha maybe there will be a fairytale in my life! haha waaa FAT HOPE! haha!

ycom meeting yesterday. okay la. haha hanmae keep disturbing me. and gab chee didnt know that the meeting was confirmed and had to rush down from school haha. anyway meeting was good and wells erm hope this ycom will be a good one!

whole body aching from 1 1/2 days of karate! haha can die man! haha but this japanese guy came to teach us so must go. dont wana miss the opportunity! haha wells i LOVE karate! hahahaha!

am i really that bad? why is everything that comes out of your mouth insulting me? do you know that everything you say stabs my heart? so what if i am short? i love it! and i did not do anything to you so why must you do this? come on la you are one year younger than me and you are taller. so what if you are smart? haha i dont give a damn! if you want to keep insulting me wells then you can f*** off.

this whole week or whats ended is soooo haii. school sucks and wells life just sucks. thanks to those people who made it sucky. you really made my day. because of you i have not heard one good things said to me. thanks

the art exhibition outing is the best. instead of going there to look at art pieces, we went to buy sushi and ate it at the staircase like beggers. haha we were having a goood time! then we went to cheers and bought ice-cream to eat. haha we did not even look at the art pieces la! haha anyway had a very fun outing. we had to wait 1 hour for the blimey bus and then when we got onto it i started disturbing keefe who was sitting beside me. haha he is soooo funny la! haha!

anyway school sucks now and wells there is like so much to do and im like stressed up. gotta sleep now mum nagging haha! byebye!

exams are almost here! wow another week of mugging! haha wells watta do? singapore stresses all its students with lots of homework and stuff haha. too bad we were born in singapore. hope i do well for my exams! but for chinese cannot say la. no hope one haha if i pass that will be a miracle because look at my chinese teacher now! HE SUCKS MAN. only talk to himself people sleep he also dont know! haha sooo stupid. and that day he forgot that we had lesson and we had 2 free periods! haha!

today yf was okay la. with this duno what game! haha maybe next time ycom do games it will be better! haha then carol didnt come so we joined the sec 4 girls for biblestudy. then i didnt feel really good cause of blah and blah so i wasnt enthu. haha i was like dead there!

anyway after that went to hanmae to j8 and had pasta mania! haha! at pasta mania we talked about king's voices and how much we missed it. yesterday i watched it and i cried! i really cried cause i was thinking what happened to everyone in king's voices? all the freidnships we built and broke. then i was thinking about blah and haii i kept crying! anyway really missed king's voices especially the musical! really really hope that we can have another musical! but wells the chances are very very slim. like maybe about 5% only.

anyway if we cant have then we cant have haha. soo gotta go and study! bye!

We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

It is time we are to ascend
for we have reached the territory of a best friend.

But friendships break even the best of ones
then all me have established becomes undone.
Your job as my angel is then complete
because you have left me with only my pen and sheet.
I am now forced to record what I feel to something unlike you and I,
it's not real.
I'm talking to myself, every single word
I write to paper but what I'm saying goes left unheard.

All this because of you my angel, you are no longer beside me
though I beg and pleaour friendship just wasn't meant to be.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever...

because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never...

this is to marion lee

my life is just nothing but hell and pain. i dont know what to do! i need time!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPONGEE!


haha i still like calling you sponge. anyway one year older one year wiser! sounds familar eh? haha anyway ur prezzie still with me! haha erm thanks alot. got too much to thank you. haha erm ur 14! haha older already! old spongee! haha! luv ya lots lots! love ya as many times as a sponge has many holes!

marion: i found it hard to forgive you and trust you. both of us are in the wrong and im sorry for whatever i did. but i just need time to think over what has been happening over the years. we knew each other since we were babies. and the rest of the years were smooth for our friendship. then when i was p4 i met claire at the musical done by ARPC she came to church and all of us got to know her and claire and i were very very good friends. then charis fan came along. the 4 of us were best of friends. but when we were p6 claire and you drifted away from charis and i and wells thats when misunderstandings started to happen. last year we didnt even talk much and then came yf camp 2005 where many things happened. wells charis and i had many talks during that camp and i got to know bout what has been going on with claire and you. that time i was very sad and confided in someone. that person is now my biggy bro. anywaythings soon became better when you said you were sorry and i said i was sorry. but when the 2 of us were okay claire's attitude towards me became weird and soon i was afraid of her. then wells after church camp when she came back wells i felt let down and when you told me you didnt wana talk to me because you didnt like hm, josh and charis i felt very angry and felt that if you dont think that they are your friends wells i dint think i was worthy to be your friend and now we are like this.


wells i just need time to think over what has happened. im sorry charis i just need sometime and marion this is really very serious and i dont want to make the mistake of a lifetime. charis i totally agree that opportunities dont come knocking twice but i dont want to grab that opportunities without thinking. i need to talk to someone im really sorry to the both of your. marion i like the change in you i mean your fashion sense and its not about you that we are like that. so dont blame yourself kay?

wells the week is sooo tiring! haii thats why i didnt blog so frequently. i have promised my self to study hard so that i can go to a good class. good news! i have no more detention! haha thats because im a good girl! haha i had no detention for 1 week already! good improvement! haha!


i think im going crazy i keep thinking what is god's intention of letting us have friendships and relationships only to some leading to heartbreak and anger? anyway whatever god's intention is wells he knows that this is the best for us.


~je'taime~

Lecture
Harangue of words, numbers,
Flying by, over tables and tables,
On which our faces lie.


Drooping heads, lifeless souls.
Slipping into alternate realities,
As water, meets paper.


The bell rings,
Almost unnoticeable amidst
Her shrill monotony.


Across the room, heads slowly rise,
Like a wave in the sea of black.
Eagle-like eyes eyeing the exit sign.


Like lunatics just released
From our asylum, we dash out,
Into the bright redeeming light of day.


erm my cuz wrote this poem and i think he is a genius. i swear i like the poem haha its so funny. talks alot about the real me in school. haha. anyway back to school just sucks. but wells at least we get to learn stuff and also meet up with friends. haii but to me the best time is always the time when we are with the people we love.


omigosh seriously josh, charis and hanmae can keep a secret BUT they cannot stop disturbing me. haii man. haha wa lao then very paiseh haha. anyway erm just dont wana tell him cause very paiseh. and wells i hope the people who know just SHUT UP about it haha.


~walking down lover's lane with you is just like a fairytale~

omgomgomg this is a must blog! my cat is back! yipee! my mum opened the door and my cat ran in! soooo happy! haha turn of events haha! just happy cat is back! i missed her so much! haha! anyway she is as fat as usual.


who cares about 2 posts in 6 hours

this is in loving memory of my fur ball ; brat MY cat. she didnt die but the stupid pest control took her away. if i find out which pest control took her away i swear i will strangle them with my bare hands .how can they take brat away she has a collar y'know! i made that collar for her last year and now she is gone and so is the collar. then my mum told me that maybe its the stray dogs who took her away. stupid stupid stray dogs. thats why i hate dogs. they take away my precious cat! whatever happened to my cat and whoever did it im sooo gona make them bring my cat back. haii i want my cat back!


erm nothing much happened just that i miss my cat. so dont feel like blogging now. :(

argh! im sick! sheesh anyway hope i can dont go school tomorrow! haha anyway today school did not even do anything cause ms tan and ms aida never come. anyway i was sleeping the whole day cause im like dying whole body is sick sick sick.


i made a bet with charis on sunday. charis remember the bet? haha if you win i will treat you, hanmae and josh to a meal EACH. but if i win you will have to treat me and only me to a meal! dont tell anyone about the bet! haha shssssh. haha.


omg i just have this empty feeling inside me when im not with my yf friends. haha anyway just wana say to charis, josh and hanmae dont be afraid over * you know what i mean*. cause since we have come so far just chiong ahead!! anyway cya guys saturday 3 plus at macs!


shucks the doctor at kk hospital gave me so much medicine and told me if i dont take it regularly i will have to take the medicine for life double shucks. she said i have "full house" haha means i have a problem with my eyes, nose, skin, lungs and even blood shucks again. omg im soo sick! haha all my friends will have to take care of me! haha well i HOPE they will do that!


~i just cant live without my friends!~

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry for putting you guys in a spot.but thanks guys for standing by me even though this was serious.


thanks charis, joshua, hanmae and aaron.for you know what haha.sorry others confidential!i really treasure guys like the four of you.and special thanks to charis, josh and hanmae for all the time we talked.haha.remember kfc!haha.will always tresure the time we spent!you guys rock!haha.


omg omg i typed something in the wrong convosation and shit sonething came out.people involved please SHUT UP!

charis fan how can you think of leaving yf?after all the years of you being my friend.i know that after i patched up with marion.im really sorry about that.i really miss the old you where you would spam my tagboard.but now you see?my tagboard is dying cause there is no you.i know that yf is screwed up but you have lots of ideas to make yf a better place but you dont carry them out!i was very shocked when you said that you will help me out with the letter and im really grateful for that.but why suddenly quit yf?we were just on the way to make yf a better place and then you just tell me that you wana quit.


i know that i have been giving you a hard time and im really sorry for the time at camp.im really really sorry i know that im in the wrong give me some of your time and i promise i will tell you everything.charis i beg you dont leave yf or lets say dont let my nightmare of one day losing a friend like you come true.from the bottom of my heart i tell you that i really dont want it to come true.i really dont want it to come true charis!dont make my nightmare come true!i beg you i really beg you please!


i know that i cant change your mind but i just want to say that even if you quit i just want to say sorry for all the things that i have done and a big big thank you for being my friend and being there for me when i was in trouble and when i felt down.thanks for all the advice on studies and you know what.haha thanks for everything charis!

I grieve, I hurt, I harm myself
Don't know which way to go
Rehash the past, relive the pain
I want to let it go
Please help me, hold me, understand
My memory is marred
By sadness, overwhelming me
Emotions really scarred
Anxiety attacks again
Then fear, loss of control
The loss of life, so truly loved
In time, sure takes its toll.


how would you feel if you find out that the clare ng that you know now is just the fake clare ng?


school just rocked when i and almost half the class got caught for staying back in the class for recess.haha it was so funny.everyone kept saying one for all all for one haha.it was like we were practically chanting it.haha anyway the miss ang let us off but ms tan did not.well watta do?haha we were in the wrong.


poor fiona her handphone got consficated by ms gopal today.i feel so bad for having slow reaction.if i had taken her handphone fast then ms gopal would not consficate it!its all my goddamn fault shit i feel so bad.fiona im soo sorry.


im like so happy that my parents are reconciled now.thanks dad for saying sorry.i really could not take it when the both of your were quarreling.anyway allswell the family is back together again!

okay first day of school just rocked.all the old faces with new hairstyles are so darn funny!haha wells not like i got the best hairstyle with my hair tied up haha.anyway seeing all my friends made me happy and super high.haha.anyway had scraped through the subjects as i did their homework but some of course copy one la.then came chinese lesson.OMG!my new chinese teacher is my pri 4 chinese teacher!haha when i saw him i was like hahahaha!!he looks the same.i think he finds me familiar.haha the girl who almost gave him a heart attack when she scored 15/100 haha.anyway first day just rocked.


after school went to west mall with roys, fiona, ying, iqbal and injin.then half-way injin and ying went duno where and do duno wat.haha anyway iqbal, fiona, roys and i went to bk den the three of us treated our dear friend roys to a meal haha.how nice.*cough cough*haha then we in total walked around 5 times around west mall.wow like we exercised a lot haha.anyway it was a good day haha.caught up with friends.


haii i really miss being friends with vennmuhil but i know i cannot turn back time.but anyway if she ever reads this when i dont think she will.well i just wana say i keep thinking about you and want to share weal and woe with you but i know it was my fault and im in the wrong but nothing can be done now.im just sorry sorry sorry.hope you have not forgotten about me.


hmm should i tell you i like you?but i just dare not.just in case i lose a friend.how?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGMING!!
haha thanks for being my chicky friend!haha even though i dont see you very often or talk to you i really thank you for being my friend!haha jia you in next years o'levels!haha you can do it!if chicky can do it so can you!!haha!!


why are you like that?one moment you are my best friend we could not be seperated and the next you didnt even say more than one sentance to me when SHE came back.what happened?im sure this is very obvious that in pointing to you but i dont understand why cant you just be the person i knew when SHE was away and still be that friend when she comes back?do you like have split personalitites?if you do then why?now i know i was so stupid to think that we could be friends like before with her around.but to my surprise you are only the best friend i knew when she is not around.i dont wana do this but im really upset about this.even josh and hanmae think that you will never be the same again.but i HAD faith that you will be the same again.but im so wrong about it.you can go and talk to HER i have enough friends that care for me.


today was ohhkay la.went to tnyf and saw him yah but didnt say anything.after yf went to j8 with josh and hanmae.went to kfc.had a laughing spree.serious we went there for 1 plus hours and maybe laughed for 1 hour.haha i had a laughing fit.haha thanks to hanmae and josh for making me laugh so that i feel better!!haha yah and i know that you know the person i like.sooo...shush!!haha dun tell annyone!haha i trust the both of you okay!


done my homework!tomorrow first day of school!whoohoo!another stressful term!haha more crying and tiredness.wells...watta do?at least i got friends behind me!

one, two, three, four!i declare a paint war!haha these 2 pictures are the pictures of me and my cousin and the after "injuries" of our paint war.for the feet photo my feet are the one with more paint.thats cause im so nice and didnt paint my cousin's feet so much.*cough cough*

my room just rocks man!haha nice colour walls which colours dont even match!haha okay gotta rush homework now!!

what if you like someone but you dont dare tell the person cause you are afraid that he/she doesnt like you?or what if the person you like knows that you like him/her but he/she doesnt like you?or what if that person you like doesnt know that you like him/her but he/she like you?WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

the hols are ending!i cant believe it!why why why?i have not finished my homework and im gona be in big trouble!oh no!

ANYWAY i got this from Zanny dear's blog:

A- Damn good in bed
B-You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people.
C- Your wild and crazy
D- Damn good in bed.
E-You're Super cool.
F-People totally adore you
G-Love is something you deeply believe in.
H-You have very good personality and looks.
I-You have a nice ass ;-)
J-Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- You're so damn cute
M-success comes easily to you.
N-You have a BIG warm Heart
O-You love foreplay
P-You are popular with all types of people.
Q-You are a hypocrite.
R-Your talkative.
S-People think you are so sexy
T-You are the best in bed.
U-You are really chill.
V-You are not judgemental.
W-You are very broad minded.
X- You never let ppl tell u wat to do
Y-One of the hardest gangsters alive
Z- your lovable

Haha okay my name:
C-Your wild and crazy (haha totally agree on the crazy part)
L- You're so damn cute (haha really?)
A-Damn good in bed (hahahaha i dont even know that)
R-Your talkative (haha im as talkative as much as the grass is green)
E-You're Super cool (im cold brrr..)

N-You have a BIG warm Heart (big heart?small body!haha)
G-Love is something you deeply believe in (erm haha yup!)

haha wait one more thing!
BIG BRO!you will always be in my heart!! <3!

IM JUST GONA SLIT MY WRISTS
and end my pathetic life.its either i die now or i die later so why should i suffer?

c*r*s*o*h*r was the hells ur problem?i know that im super short and that you are super tall but you dont need to pick on me everytime.even infront of my friends.what kind of cousin are you?i know i cant bowl as well as you but you dont need to keep saying that i suck.so what if i carry a 6 pounder ball and you carry a 14 pounder ball?im not weak its just that i like it!i just dont get it wats ur darn problem?oh ya and when i get a darn strike you say lucky lucky but when other people get a strike you say waa good good.is it that you have no confidence so you pick on me?if you werent my cousin maybe i could forgive you.but you ARE my cousin and you should be like supporting me not insulting and criticising me.

im sorry i have to do this but you have really gone too far.

Marion babe is now in japan enjoying herself haha.ehh im soo bored.leaving for camp tonight.ENCOUNTER camp haha to encounter god.WOW im like so excited.haha im soo tired now.but camp tonight!haha!byebye!

This song is soo cool! Haha! I can sing a little but if anyone knows this song please tell me!

Friends ( Smith Michael W)

Packing the dreams of God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

( CHORUS )
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

( CHORUS )

I was thought to sing this song during camp. I feel that this song has lots of meanings. Haha but i dont know how to sing it! Nevermind! I will find a way! Haha!

I think Church Camp 2006 just rocked!

3rd June:
Had Estherfez and i acted as the main actress Esther!! We got BRONZE! Very good for a first try!! Haha! Im so happy! Anyway after that travelled a long way and FINALLY reached the hotel! I "ate" my dinner and then rushed to find my friends! Was so happy to see them! Haha! Then i received my presents for my birthday! Thank you guys! Then went to sleep.

4th June:
Had breakfast at the open-air place and was freezing there. So we ate and left! Haha! The talk was okay la. Didnt really listen much! Haha! Then bible study was a little pissing but nevermind haha. Then workshop BORING and PISSING!! Haha!!

5th June:
Whole day was good and the International Concert was perfect! Lots of people said that our skit rocked! Haha! After that played cards with Darrel, Marion, Cynric and Gabriel. Haha i learnt how to play bridge!!

6th June:
OHH this was the best day! haha! Didnt eat breakfast cause wasnt feeling well. But had a great time during bible study! Haha! The free time Marion, Darrel, Gabriel and i stayed in the hotel and monkeyed around the room. Haha then i felt sick and curled up in a corner. Then everyone thought it was because of Gabriel. But of course not! Haha! Then they tried many ways to help me. Then darrel act stupid and carried me. Haha poor him! I told him i was very heavy liao! Then went for dinner. Haii i just hate meal times! All i do is eat and puke! Haii!

7th June:
Woke up feeling sad cause that was the last day of camp! Haii! Had NO breakfast then went for sermon. I could fall asleep on my feet! Was so darn tired. And Gabriel keep telling me to sleep and he will wake me up haha! Thanks man! ANYWAY had a BORING lunch but eventually i puked again. OHWELLS. Left the hotel and went back to spore!

I really liked the church camp! Many things happened! But it still was good!

Oh wow! I bought a skirt and a FBT shorts!! Haha! But i lost $50!! I lost $50! OMG!! Its like $50. Ouch man!ARGH i cannot believe im so careless to lose $50. So pissed man! But i didnt tell my mum cause she will KILL me haha!! ARGH!!

Anyway who needs $50? Haha!! Im missing Marion so much!! She is coming back in 2 days! Haha cant wait for church camp so i can see her!! YEAHH!!!!!!! Haha okay gotta go and learn my lines for the esther skit!! Wish me luck! Im playing the lead role!! As Esther!! Haha!! Sayonara!

Im so grateful to Charis and Hanmae and Natalie who made my day better!!
-Thanks to Charis for the cake you baked!! Even though you just came back for camp!!
-Thanks to Natalie for buying the cup even though the message was OMG! Haha!!
-Thanks to Hanmae and Charis for spending time with me!!
See the neos we took!!

Im the boredest person around..Haii no Marion no Charis haii my life is so monotone..Haha and tomorrow is my birthday and im like so not looking forward to it haha..Anyway something today brightened up my day!

I was at a workshop in school when Zi Kang cameto my table and passed me a letter..I thought what rubbish is he up to now?! Then i opened the letter and WOW!!!!! The letter was from Sarah!! Haha i have not seen her since the time at West Mall!! Haha!! I was like soooooooooooooo uber happy man!! Haha!!

This is to Sarah!! :
Hey gorgeous! Thanks for the letter!! Really made my day!! Haha what a funny way to pass it to me! I tell you i was darn shocked!! Haha!! Anyway how to return the letter?! Haha!! You must tell me how okay!! Haha!! Love you!! Miss you truckloads!!

Haha Sarah really made my day otherwise it would be so BORING without the 2 crazy people Charis and Marion! Haha!! Tomorrow is my birthday and im feeling so bored haha so "funny".

I WILL MISS MARION AND CHARIS!

I will miss the both of your..But sorry Charis i will miss Marion more cause she is gone for a longer time. This is to the 2 of your! Highlight under your name!( In alphabetical order )

CHARIS! ( SPONGE ) :
Charis! You will be going to camp from tomorrow till friday.Takkaire okay! I will miss you! Even though its for a few days we have been such good friends that its difficult to let go even though its for a few days! Haha this may sound dumb but its TRUE! All 100% of it! If you need me just call me okay! Miss you! Have a good time! Its fun!

MARION! ( BABE ) :
Babe! You will be going to japan till 1 june! This is the first time you wont be here for my bdae and yours too! I will miss you all the days you are not here! Its like when i dont see you at YF i will think of you and on your bdae i will think of you more! Have a happy bdae in japan okay! Takkaire there! Its gona be cold! So here's a Happy Bdae in advance for you! Miss you lots lots! Come back safe!

Okay..Its gona be my bdae in 3 days time! Im so happy! Im finally gona be 14! Im a big girl now! Gotta behave! Haha! Anyway..haha okay i gotta go byebye!

PLEASE REMIND ME THAT I HATE GENTING THEME PARK!

Okay i seriously hate Genting Theme Park for so many damn reasons..First wth where is my favourite ride?! Its like shut down and the water was all sucked up!! WTH!! And second damn that person who operated the damn ride..It was freaking scary and so wat if i screamed?! You didnt need to laugh at me! F*** you man..Anyway..Geting was OKAY except for the part where the whole of Genting heard me scream! Haha! OMG! There was this indian lady she said to her boyfriend,"Baby! There is a Japanese girl sitting behind me!" Then i looked up and saw her pointing her finger at me! WTH do i look the slightest bit of japanese?! That was so embarassing man.

Okay im so screwed up..I was voted by my Girls Brigade friends to play Esther for the upcoming ESTHERFEZ..Its on 3 june and thats the day the church camp is starting..SHIT! I need help should i play Esther or should i go church camp on time?! HELP me!! Okay la i want to play Esther as it gives me more experience but argh if i do then i will be late for church camp..HOW!!!!!

I seriously dont look japanese and i am not the peanut girl selling peanut by the road

This post is dedicated to the people who made my life WOW! Haha the people are(not in order): Charis, Marion, Ah kong Darrel, Natalie, Claire, Joshua and Han mae.

Lots of love and thanks that i cannot express to Charis for being so damn nice to me even though i know that i can be a little too much! haha! Thanks for all the maths tuitions and all the little talks! Haha! I will always be here for you! You are my number 1 tagger! Haha! Without you i would have not passed my maths and i would still be feeling depressed! Haha! Hope my laughter and jokes will cheer you up! Haha! I will be waiting for you to return from camp! You wont die there cause God will be watching over you! Haha! Cheers!

Lots of hugs to squeeze Marion to little bits cause i love her so much! Thanks for being my friend for so many DONKEY years! Even though there was a time when we werent so close haha but bygones are bygones! Haha what matters is now! Now we are best friends! Haha! You will always be my babe! Haha!

Lots of thank yous and hugs to Ah Kong Darrel! For helping me all the way and telling me things! Thanks for all the talks on msn! Even the bad ones so i get to know that u are VERY evil! Haha! Anyway takkaire of woolala okay?! Otherwise haha i will strangle you! Haha! Anyway haha thanks for everything! Without you i will probably be in the girls home! Haha!

Lots of thanks to Claire and Nat for all the laughter and smiles! Haha without you guys i wouldnt know the true meaning of friends!

And lastly to the 2 juveniles Joshua and Hanmae..Haha the 2 of ur have been my friends for very long and i really thank you for the laughter and jokes. To Josh aka mushroom head haha thanks for the stupid comments and the stupid jokes! Haha they really made me laugh! Haha! And to Hanmae thanks for all the times you accompanied me! And for inviting me to ur house and all the little jokes! Haha without the 2 of ur little imps i wouldnt feel like i have 2 extra sibilings who are as irritating! Haha! God loves!

Thanks everyone! Without all of you i wouldnt be me!

Oh wow in the past 2 days i bought:- 3 bras ( dark blue, green and red)
2 spongebob brand beach shorts ( pink and blue)
1 long sleeve t-shirt (dark blue!)
Haha i went on a shopping spree! Haha but i did not buy as much things as MARION LEE haha..Anyway this is random but i have not bought clothes for many months! Haha!

Hmm i wonder if bulimia can really cause death haha maybe it can! Then i would be dead! Haha! Oh wow! Haha then when i go to heaven i will ask God to give me a room and next to me will be Charis's room then next to my room on the other side will be Marion's room then next to Charis will be Nat's room then next to Marion's room will be Claire! Haha then i will ask God to bulid the biggest bungalow he can build so that everyone in TNYF can go there! Haha! Yes!

Okay this is something about me the highlighted ones are real about me!
MAY BABY:-
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Strong-willed and highly motivated.
Sharp thoughts.
Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention.
Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally.
Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation.
Shy towards oppisite sex.
Easily consoled.
Systematic (left brain).
Loves to dream.
Strong clairvoyance.
Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck.
Good imagination.
Good physical.
Weak breathing.
Loves literature and the arts.
Loves traveling.
Dislike being at home.
Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking.
High spirited.

Oh wow! Haha this is random so the readers can know more about me! Haha!

This is for Charis and Claire! Have a safe journey and enjoy the camp! Will be praying for the 2 of you! Stay happy there! And when you get back haha tell me about the camp! Will be praying for you!

This is for the babe Marion! Enjoy ur time in Japan! Haha have a safe journey and return safe! Haha will be praying for you!

Oh wow! I signed up at a forum..Haha Ah Kong Darrel invited me! Anyway anyone wana sign up? The url is http://mindblock.17.forumer.com. Go and check it out..Haha.Its nice la.

Im so sad and so high now! How cool right?! Im sad because Charis, Marion and Claire are not going to be with me on my birthday only Natalie! Haha Nat is such a "good" friend haha! And im high because..because..because..because my exam is finished after tmrw!! YIPEEEEE!!! Thats a good thing!!! No more stress!! Ehh but stiill must wait for results! Oh SHIT! Haii well thats the bad part.

Just received my health results..Haii..Doctor said that my health has deproved and there is a small hole in my heart. Maybe i will just die before the year ends. But at least even if i die i know that i have good friends to turn up for my funeral and cry for me. Haii but must i die a sick person?! I have a whole basketful of medicine..Haii im gona DIE.

Am i really gona die? Or am i just gona be sick my whole life?

Yesterday invited Fei Zhai and Fiona to my church..They like both sian sian leh. But never mind after that we went to Lot1 to take neos. Haha all the photos i look like ghost! So fair looking! Haha but while taking we really miss Sarah! Haii Sarah when are you coming back?! We really miss you lots! Come back soon we got lots of things for ya!

Okay so yourENEMY tagged like so much. Anyway so what if i hold my spoon the way i hold it now? I like it. And you have no right to criticise my cousin and i. Cause to us family spirit matters most and we will not let anyone bully anyone of us. To me the way yourENEMY talked about family spirit sounds like he has NO family spirit! He has no cousins to care for him! If he does i sure pity his family as he has no family spirit. And you do not need to tell me that your parents are lecturers cause so what if they are?! My mum is a housewife and a part-time teacher and my dad is a personal chaffuer. So are you saying that they are not good? If you are im seriously gona bash your head. Cause my parents brought me up the way i am now. They never told me that i hold my spoon wrongly! So you have no say in that.

Good day to yourENEMY and i love you all those who are behind me all the way!

Okay this post is totally dedicated to youeENEMY and all the other people who tag on my tagboard and spam it with stuff.

Okay when i read your tags i could laugh it off and say wow i didnt know someone would be so mad at me. But this thing has a limit and that limit was reached when u called my friends and cousin a dog! That seriously pissed me off. Okay i could take that but seriously if u want to flame me tell me in the face! Why tag and get insulted by my all-so-loving and wonderful friends and cousin?

You know i was shocked to think that u are a guy cause i think i know who u are! And what the h*ll?! And you think u so smart ehh? Ask my cousin those questions! Well your IQ is sure limited as there are many kinds of other bra and the are many kinds of plastic surgery. You are certainly a low-down creep you got a score to settle with me?! Then leave my friends and cousin out of it! Tell me face to face! Why are u scared that i will bash you up! And if u think that i will the answer is YES! Cause i HATE people who discriminate my friends and still dare to all them dogs!

After reading this post dont go laughing to yourself and go "Haha what a waste of time!" Cause i will one day track you down and hit you till u say sorry. Wana call ur "gang"? Well bring it on cause im surely not scrared.

Go and find some other things to do and get a life! I have a nice life with all my friends here!

Thanks Charis, Marion, Natale and Krystl! Wow thanks guy i really feel happy to know that you are with me! This person better pray that i will not find out who he/she is cause i will ___ the person!

I have a great life and i love it. Dont come and ruin my life cause you will never ge away with it!

Today was the best day of the year! I met up with Fiona (bitchie) and Pearyln (fei zhai) and they call me (boobsie) like what is that name supposed to mean? Haha okay we were studying and then they started talking about my boobs (how pervertic). Then I took out a piece of paper and we thought of some questions and answered them. Well the results were that i will be the first one to lose my virginity and the first one to get married. Whats that supposed to mean?

Wow i bought an anklet for myself today at west mall. I usually dont buy these kind of things but today well, im crazy! Haha! The anklet makes alot of noise man! Haha but i like things that make noise esp friends!

Yes! Tmrw got no tuition! Im gona sleep like a pig then go and mugmugmug! Im so impressed with myslef. From a person who never believed in studying for exams to one crazy mugger! Haha! Im changing from bad to worse!

I know i have changed. But have i changed for the worse?

Okay what a fine day! Im now in the computr lab sitting inbetween one luntic idiotic Tan Chee Yong and one super small boy Soh Keefe! Haha i think i have hit that stupid Chee Yong like many times but i dont care! Haha! He is so dman faggot man say that i like _____ when he himself like ____ one! Haha i think he is bisexual! He like Dinah and ____ haha!

And that small boy Keefe haha so small i think he never grow one! Haha but he is a nice haha not like the bisexual Chee Yong! Haha! And that stupid Stephen haha sit behind me! Haha he so faggot man! When they read about Zanny they say i lesbian! Haha how stupid man!

Omgomgomg! Haha i just realise that i have not grown! That means im only 1.52! HOLY SHIT! Haha but i think nevermind la! Haha short nicer! If too tall then cannot find boyfriend easily! Haha this is totally random haha! Haii! I didnt even know that tmrw is my english and maths exam! Gosh! I have not finish revising! Haii! Gotta go home and do revision!

*zanny* ( i love my singapore pipsqueak) says:
hey singapore pipsqueak!
.::cLaRe::. [ hearts are just like glass ] says:
hey hawaiian monkey!im not a pipsqueak lehh
*zanny* ( i love my singapore pipsqueak) says:
u are my baby pipsqueak cause u are so small!
.::cLaRe::. [ hearts are just like glass ] says:
haha err okay sounds weird haha
*zanny* ( i love my singapore pipsqueak) says:
yes! but u still are my singapore pipsqueak and i am ur hawaiian monkey!

Haha i just love zanny cause she is like damn looney man! Haha! Erm please dont go around calling me pipsqueak! Cause i dont like it! Haha! Zanny damn toopid i tell her im having exams now and she still disturb me haha! Well at least she keeps me happy! Haha! I love Zanny aka hawaiian monkey! Gotta go and mugmugmug! Haha! Omgomgomg! Did i tell anyone that Chloe's legs are like wooolala! Haha lucky shit Calamari is man! Haha if she wasnt his i would go after her! Haha! Omgomgomg i sound so les but Chloe is sure worth it! Haha!

I got a tattoo on my ass! But its only a temporary one! I will get one when im older..Haha..I swear. I will get one on my ASS! Haha! I will do it on my 18th birthday! A permanent one on my ass. Haha! Im crazy over getting a tattoo!

Okay today went wild wild wet! Then played with Gerard, Angeline, Dwight and Gerard's cousins who are twins! Haha they damn hot man! Like got 2 of them look alike then both also so hot! But of course i never tell Angeline or Gerard or they will tell them.Haha..Okay now im like laughing so hard cause i realised that my cat just shitted in the washing machine! Ewww so damn gross man! Haha!

YOU didnt have to scold me for slitting my wrists! Its my problem and i do it cause it makes me relax and forget all the problems i have!

Yes! Im just so happy that geography my worst fear is over! But i dont think i did well..SHIT! Anyway..My mum just left for Mawaii malaysia so i hope she will just return home safely! Today my brother woke me up at 5am shouting,"Clare! Today got school! Wake up!" I was like WTH today is saturday! Toopid brother of mine!

I need a hug! Im dying from malnutrition and starvartion! I have not eaten anything for the last 2 days! I bet you that i will faint! Yes! I wana try that! That will be like so cool! Okay i going crazy! Gotta go back to sleep! Byebye!

If you would just give me something to eat

Okay seriously i should be studying..Haha my geography is like on friday and i have 2 more chapters to do! I got no mood to study! I so scared man i got butterflies in my stomach! Help!!

Yes Charis i know you are very free so can help me? I need help in maths! Haha this is an online plea so you better say YES! Haha this is serious blackmail! I want out of exams! ARGH! Okay gona mugmugmug!

Okay i seriously should start studying i have been doing that for everyone's information! Haha..Im so letargic! I cannot take anymore! Im going crazy!

Anyway i will not be posting so often cause must study. But please keep tagging! Haha! I need games for this weeks TNYF! Can give me suggestions? Please help me before i die!

Exams exams exams Mug mug mug mug!

For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile you gave me Jesus and you made me your child. And i just thank you Father for making me, me!

Im just so happy becasue God made me to be me! Haha i have been studying non-stop but haha yes im blogging. Anyway i have realised that i have not been a good girl all these years! I have been smoking, fighting, swearing and lots of things God wouldnt want me to do. But i still did them. I feel very foolish to have done those things esp smoking and i have officially stopped! But now, im having mood swings and cold sweat cause i have stopped but i think that this is worth it. I have made up my mind to be a better person and to live God's way. Im gona make many people proud of me. Thanks to Charis, Marion, Hanmae, Calamari, Chloe, Natalie, Sarah, Jingming, Daryl and those who have helped me. Thanks you all for giving me the courage to stop all of these bad habits.

And most of all i thank you lord for giving me such good friends who stick by me all the time! And for those who despise me for my bad habits(i shall not name them) i also want to thank you for looking down on me so that i would realise that i have done wrong and i need to change! Haha!

Haha i got a new haircut! And i think i look like tweety bird! Anyway i just hate it la..But just cut because i got money to waste! Haha

I just cant find the courage to talk to you after the "fight" on msn..Well just want to say that im a little pissed with you but still want to be friends. Haha that sounds so stupid. Anyway just want to say that im sorry for whatever i have done (i cant remember) . But i just want to clarify somethings but i dare not to. All i want to say that you have been like a BIG brother to me and i want to thank you for all the things you have said to me. But i just cant find the courage to talk to you like a close friend? I want to talk to you like the times when the misunderstandings did not happen. But i just cant seem to do it! I just cant! I seem to have lost the courage to speak to anybody.

Someone tell me what should i do?

I got a new ____! Haha shant tell any of you what i got! Haha! Marion and Charis and others! Will show you on sunday! Haha..

OMG! I should say this prayer everyday! Dear God, If i cant be SKINNY please let all my friends be FAT! Haha..Dedicate this poem to Fei Zhai (Pearlyn)!

Just want to say thanks to you for helping me solve my problems and cheering up! You have been a great friend!

Haha really duno what to type! Haha maybe i will just go to my room now and mugmugmug! Haha! Heyy only 1 week left! Rushrushruush! Haha xD

I got a new ____!! Haha

Today not bad la..But someone wrote on my book 'SMOKER' when i read that i was so angry! How can someone do that to me? Im trying very hard already and here is someone trying to tease me about it. Im trying my best. So, i cant be bothered with whatever you do. Let me repeat I WILL NOT BE BOTHERED BY YOU ANYMORE!!

Haha tmrw i got show and tell! OMG! Im gona die! Im so scared of public speaking! Haha hope i dont stumble or something! Gotta go now got to mugmugmug..Got only 1 more week!

Whatever you do wont affect me in anyway

Today had NAFA test..Im like so happy! But i failed 2.4km so i must retake wa lao so unfair man haha.. Anyway, I had a good time doing the stations la.

OH MY COOKIE! Tmrw is Cousin Chong's birthday! I know what to get for her! Haha C is for cookie cookie cookie cookie! C is for crazy crazy crazy crazy! Haha I just love Cousin Chong! But i cant stand her freaking tall brother! Haha head so big and ego also so big!

Thanks Marion, Charis, Hanmae, Natalie, Claire and others ( except Calamari ) for being there for me! I will QUIT and i will study hard! Haha! Thanks for all the encouragement! Wont let you guys down!

C is for cookie cookie cookie! C is for crazy crazy crazy!

Whoever tagged my tagboard and spammed it with rubbish. Can you just get a life? If you hate me so much whhy not just tell me directly in the face? You do not need to spam my tagboard and also dare not to put your name. If you dare to tagg such things why dont dare to put your name? Like Charis said dont come back to my blog and tagg here cause i dont welcome you.

Thanks Charis for scolding them but i would prefer that you dont comminucate as you are practically wasting your time on them. And please dont waste $50 on them! Just use it to treat all our friends! Haha at least the money will go to good use.

Okay! Im going to study liao..Haha Byebye!

Dont waste your time..Tell it to me straight

I was such a good girl today coming home straight after school. Let me repeat STRAIGHT HOME AFTER SCHOOL. I have never done that in my entire 2 years in secondary school.. Now what people out there are going to see is the new me.

I have decided to change into a better person. I will stop to do the following or maybe try to stop: - Smoking ( im quitting for life )
- Swearing ( i will TRY to )
- Cutting myself ( i will try really hard )
- Crying in the night ( i really cant help it )

I wat to stop all these things as i think i have not been living my life god's way. So i will strive to be a better person! Jia You to me!

Today played badminton with Joshua, Hanmae and Hanshen. Haha i realised that i cant serve past the net! Haha xD well, at least i can hit the shuttlecock! Haha xD

After that went to Hanmae's house and after that went for dinner with her family. There Hanmae and i were like laughing like all the time!

Anyway im really happy to know that at least i have friends beside me eventhough i have done wrong thanks guys!

Glad to have such good friends like this..Im honoured xD

Argh had to change my blog cause some crap shit hacked my blog. Well..if i ever find out who did that im gona flatten all your little fingers get it?! If anybody hacks my blog and if i find out you can say sayonara to your fingers!

What if i say that i smoke? Will all my friends leave me? Or will they still be by my side? Im TRYING to quit smoking before my parents find out about it. But when i started to smoke i had my reasons. I just want to say sorry to all the people whom i have let down.

Will you be my friend even when i have been smoking?