charis fan how can you think of leaving yf?after all the years of you being my friend.i know that after i patched up with marion.im really sorry about that.i really miss the old you where you would spam my tagboard.but now you see?my tagboard is dying cause there is no you.i know that yf is screwed up but you have lots of ideas to make yf a better place but you dont carry them out!i was very shocked when you said that you will help me out with the letter and im really grateful for that.but why suddenly quit yf?we were just on the way to make yf a better place and then you just tell me that you wana quit.


i know that i have been giving you a hard time and im really sorry for the time at camp.im really really sorry i know that im in the wrong give me some of your time and i promise i will tell you everything.charis i beg you dont leave yf or lets say dont let my nightmare of one day losing a friend like you come true.from the bottom of my heart i tell you that i really dont want it to come true.i really dont want it to come true charis!dont make my nightmare come true!i beg you i really beg you please!


i know that i cant change your mind but i just want to say that even if you quit i just want to say sorry for all the things that i have done and a big big thank you for being my friend and being there for me when i was in trouble and when i felt down.thanks for all the advice on studies and you know what.haha thanks for everything charis!

I grieve, I hurt, I harm myself
Don't know which way to go
Rehash the past, relive the pain
I want to let it go
Please help me, hold me, understand
My memory is marred
By sadness, overwhelming me
Emotions really scarred
Anxiety attacks again
Then fear, loss of control
The loss of life, so truly loved
In time, sure takes its toll.


how would you feel if you find out that the clare ng that you know now is just the fake clare ng?


school just rocked when i and almost half the class got caught for staying back in the class for recess.haha it was so funny.everyone kept saying one for all all for one haha.it was like we were practically chanting it.haha anyway the miss ang let us off but ms tan did not.well watta do?haha we were in the wrong.


poor fiona her handphone got consficated by ms gopal today.i feel so bad for having slow reaction.if i had taken her handphone fast then ms gopal would not consficate it!its all my goddamn fault shit i feel so bad.fiona im soo sorry.


im like so happy that my parents are reconciled now.thanks dad for saying sorry.i really could not take it when the both of your were quarreling.anyway allswell the family is back together again!

okay first day of school just rocked.all the old faces with new hairstyles are so darn funny!haha wells not like i got the best hairstyle with my hair tied up haha.anyway seeing all my friends made me happy and super high.haha.anyway had scraped through the subjects as i did their homework but some of course copy one la.then came chinese lesson.OMG!my new chinese teacher is my pri 4 chinese teacher!haha when i saw him i was like hahahaha!!he looks the same.i think he finds me familiar.haha the girl who almost gave him a heart attack when she scored 15/100 haha.anyway first day just rocked.


after school went to west mall with roys, fiona, ying, iqbal and injin.then half-way injin and ying went duno where and do duno wat.haha anyway iqbal, fiona, roys and i went to bk den the three of us treated our dear friend roys to a meal haha.how nice.*cough cough*haha then we in total walked around 5 times around west mall.wow like we exercised a lot haha.anyway it was a good day haha.caught up with friends.


haii i really miss being friends with vennmuhil but i know i cannot turn back time.but anyway if she ever reads this when i dont think she will.well i just wana say i keep thinking about you and want to share weal and woe with you but i know it was my fault and im in the wrong but nothing can be done now.im just sorry sorry sorry.hope you have not forgotten about me.


hmm should i tell you i like you?but i just dare not.just in case i lose a friend.how?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGMING!!
haha thanks for being my chicky friend!haha even though i dont see you very often or talk to you i really thank you for being my friend!haha jia you in next years o'levels!haha you can do it!if chicky can do it so can you!!haha!!


why are you like that?one moment you are my best friend we could not be seperated and the next you didnt even say more than one sentance to me when SHE came back.what happened?im sure this is very obvious that in pointing to you but i dont understand why cant you just be the person i knew when SHE was away and still be that friend when she comes back?do you like have split personalitites?if you do then why?now i know i was so stupid to think that we could be friends like before with her around.but to my surprise you are only the best friend i knew when she is not around.i dont wana do this but im really upset about this.even josh and hanmae think that you will never be the same again.but i HAD faith that you will be the same again.but im so wrong about it.you can go and talk to HER i have enough friends that care for me.


today was ohhkay la.went to tnyf and saw him yah but didnt say anything.after yf went to j8 with josh and hanmae.went to kfc.had a laughing spree.serious we went there for 1 plus hours and maybe laughed for 1 hour.haha i had a laughing fit.haha thanks to hanmae and josh for making me laugh so that i feel better!!haha yah and i know that you know the person i like.sooo...shush!!haha dun tell annyone!haha i trust the both of you okay!


done my homework!tomorrow first day of school!whoohoo!another stressful term!haha more crying and tiredness.wells...watta do?at least i got friends behind me!

one, two, three, four!i declare a paint war!haha these 2 pictures are the pictures of me and my cousin and the after "injuries" of our paint war.for the feet photo my feet are the one with more paint.thats cause im so nice and didnt paint my cousin's feet so much.*cough cough*

my room just rocks man!haha nice colour walls which colours dont even match!haha okay gotta rush homework now!!

what if you like someone but you dont dare tell the person cause you are afraid that he/she doesnt like you?or what if the person you like knows that you like him/her but he/she doesnt like you?or what if that person you like doesnt know that you like him/her but he/she like you?WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

the hols are ending!i cant believe it!why why why?i have not finished my homework and im gona be in big trouble!oh no!

ANYWAY i got this from Zanny dear's blog:

A- Damn good in bed
B-You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people.
C- Your wild and crazy
D- Damn good in bed.
E-You're Super cool.
F-People totally adore you
G-Love is something you deeply believe in.
H-You have very good personality and looks.
I-You have a nice ass ;-)
J-Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- You're so damn cute
M-success comes easily to you.
N-You have a BIG warm Heart
O-You love foreplay
P-You are popular with all types of people.
Q-You are a hypocrite.
R-Your talkative.
S-People think you are so sexy
T-You are the best in bed.
U-You are really chill.
V-You are not judgemental.
W-You are very broad minded.
X- You never let ppl tell u wat to do
Y-One of the hardest gangsters alive
Z- your lovable

Haha okay my name:
C-Your wild and crazy (haha totally agree on the crazy part)
L- You're so damn cute (haha really?)
A-Damn good in bed (hahahaha i dont even know that)
R-Your talkative (haha im as talkative as much as the grass is green)
E-You're Super cool (im cold brrr..)

N-You have a BIG warm Heart (big heart?small body!haha)
G-Love is something you deeply believe in (erm haha yup!)

haha wait one more thing!
BIG BRO!you will always be in my heart!! <3!

IM JUST GONA SLIT MY WRISTS
and end my pathetic life.its either i die now or i die later so why should i suffer?

c*r*s*o*h*r was the hells ur problem?i know that im super short and that you are super tall but you dont need to pick on me everytime.even infront of my friends.what kind of cousin are you?i know i cant bowl as well as you but you dont need to keep saying that i suck.so what if i carry a 6 pounder ball and you carry a 14 pounder ball?im not weak its just that i like it!i just dont get it wats ur darn problem?oh ya and when i get a darn strike you say lucky lucky but when other people get a strike you say waa good good.is it that you have no confidence so you pick on me?if you werent my cousin maybe i could forgive you.but you ARE my cousin and you should be like supporting me not insulting and criticising me.

im sorry i have to do this but you have really gone too far.

Marion babe is now in japan enjoying herself haha.ehh im soo bored.leaving for camp tonight.ENCOUNTER camp haha to encounter god.WOW im like so excited.haha im soo tired now.but camp tonight!haha!byebye!

This song is soo cool! Haha! I can sing a little but if anyone knows this song please tell me!

Friends ( Smith Michael W)

Packing the dreams of God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

( CHORUS )
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

( CHORUS )

I was thought to sing this song during camp. I feel that this song has lots of meanings. Haha but i dont know how to sing it! Nevermind! I will find a way! Haha!

I think Church Camp 2006 just rocked!

3rd June:
Had Estherfez and i acted as the main actress Esther!! We got BRONZE! Very good for a first try!! Haha! Im so happy! Anyway after that travelled a long way and FINALLY reached the hotel! I "ate" my dinner and then rushed to find my friends! Was so happy to see them! Haha! Then i received my presents for my birthday! Thank you guys! Then went to sleep.

4th June:
Had breakfast at the open-air place and was freezing there. So we ate and left! Haha! The talk was okay la. Didnt really listen much! Haha! Then bible study was a little pissing but nevermind haha. Then workshop BORING and PISSING!! Haha!!

5th June:
Whole day was good and the International Concert was perfect! Lots of people said that our skit rocked! Haha! After that played cards with Darrel, Marion, Cynric and Gabriel. Haha i learnt how to play bridge!!

6th June:
OHH this was the best day! haha! Didnt eat breakfast cause wasnt feeling well. But had a great time during bible study! Haha! The free time Marion, Darrel, Gabriel and i stayed in the hotel and monkeyed around the room. Haha then i felt sick and curled up in a corner. Then everyone thought it was because of Gabriel. But of course not! Haha! Then they tried many ways to help me. Then darrel act stupid and carried me. Haha poor him! I told him i was very heavy liao! Then went for dinner. Haii i just hate meal times! All i do is eat and puke! Haii!

7th June:
Woke up feeling sad cause that was the last day of camp! Haii! Had NO breakfast then went for sermon. I could fall asleep on my feet! Was so darn tired. And Gabriel keep telling me to sleep and he will wake me up haha! Thanks man! ANYWAY had a BORING lunch but eventually i puked again. OHWELLS. Left the hotel and went back to spore!

I really liked the church camp! Many things happened! But it still was good!