i will cast all of my cares upon You
and lay all of my burden
down at Your feet
and anytime
i dont know
what to do
i will cast all of my cares upon You

and the picture doesnt mean anything
i just like the picture
and im as sane as clare can be
(which is saner than most people)

today had a good time shooting paper bullets at people
haha
its just so fun to relieve childhood memories
when i used to hit people with the bullets
MUAHAHAHA

ive been thinking about stuff
on the way home from church on the bus
i realised its like
im living a double life
like i can be sad at one moment
and then happy at the next
it makes me so so UNPREDICTABLE
i dont know when i will just blow with anger
nor do i know when i will go high
and piss everyone off
i doubt its mood swing
cause when i have mood swings its really bad

so welcome to my double life
i can be clare the happy one time
and clare the grumpy another time
at this point of time
if you wanna sever ties with me
i dont mind
cause its not easy befriending
a person who has a double life
i dont blame you
i actually blame myself
SIGH

hey
do you know when you hurt
i hurt too?

everything will turn out well in the end
you gotta believe in that
cause i believe in that too
trust that god will bring you through this difficult time
trust him
everything wil turn out well

oh yes!
finally my chinese paper is over!!
haha
and i maybe able to pass
if ... pigs do actually fly
HAHA
im a PROFESSIONAL in chinese okay

gotta really study these days
so last minute okay
hahahaha
but better late than never!

im feeling much much better
it like i have talked all my hatred out
thanks luke for talking to me ytd
sorry if i was grumpy and irritating
and its like
i feel that i had a little talk with god
and he has taken all my hurt away
maybe thats why im feeling happier
now i know why
people say trust in the lord
and you will find peace

Ephesians 4:2-3
2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.

why do i care so much when it doesnt even concern me?
even if i cared it wouldnt do much
haii i have decided to stop caring
cause it doesnt concern me at all
and whatever happens it wouldnt affect my life
so i dont care anymore
i mean its like you may get mad that im so busybody
and i wouldnt wanna get angry
because i cared and you misunderstood me
i can already picture it in mind
you shouting at me
and i defending myself
and in the end,
both walk aweay feeling hurt
its just not worth it
so i cant be bothered anymore
but if you wanna talk
im here

- i hurt myself, so you cant

todat woke up at the most amazing time
which was ... 7.15am
and yes that means late for school
but luckily it was my second time this semester
so i just had to run around the carpark
2 times
haha so malu
and i was like breathless for a long time
im soo unfit
sheesh

anyway i just cant stand SOME people
im just not saying that person's name
as i cant stand even typing it out
the person so BHB lo
go and see other people's report books
even if she didnt see mine
at least respect others privacy
bitch
if she had seen mine
im gonna slap her face
till it turns blood red
mei you jia jiao de bitch

im soo tired
last night i was at my cousin's grandma funeral
helping to fold the offering paper
then i only went home at like 4.30am
and had to wake up at 7.30am
cause my other cousin's wedding
the tea ceremony
wa lao
darn tired
and tonight got the wedding dinner
waaa sleepy man!
RAWR

Sometime in everyone's life,
they feel betrayed and all alone,
like everything is a lie.
You are trapped in a world of anger
and rage and you can only see red through your eyes.
No one seem to see when you are going through this time,
or understand why.
But it is times like these that God takes you in His arms
and tames your wild mind and assures you,
you are never alone.

* im never alone *

i just had a haircut
cause i looked shaggy
and now
i look like a freaking
BUTCH
sheesh
okay now i look weird
wa lao
cannot take it
RAWR

im so tired of everything
i feel so...stupid
like i have nothing
all i do everyday is just
school, tuition and home
the only sane thing is church
haii

today walked into the classroom
and my table had a layer of dust on it
bloody hell
had to clean it all off
sheesh
how FILTHY can the school get
with the conctruction and stupid people
polluting the whole enviroment

i swear
some people just need a slap on their faces
they just have no face
so thick-skinned
you know i cant stand you
still put your face right infront of me
wait till i puke on you
then there are some people
who just dunno when to stop
i mean like
if you see my mood is bad
stop irritating me
otherwise i would turn bad
im sorry people
i have been real moody these times

self-confidence
whats that?
i dont think i ever had that before
and some people just put you dwon
real bad
like your this piece of crap infront of them
hey
spare a thought for people
i mean everyone has feeling ya know
maybe i lost mine a few years ago
but im still human
sheesh
stop putting people down
and get a grip of your stuck-up self

SHEESH!

i hate some people
they think everyone owes them a freaking living
they thinks the freaking world revolves around them
they dont care about others feelings
why dont they care!
arent they freaking bloody humans too!!
where the hell are their feelings!!

go and die stupid world

many people say that
there is a god shaped hole in our hearts
and only god can fill it
is it true?

~ love will find a way, i know it will ~

UPENDI
is the kiswahili word for love

i have been addicted to
the show
the lion king
the lion king 2 is super nice can!
haha
soo touching
and i lovee the song
Love Will Find A Way!
haha

Love Will Find a Way
- Heather Headley & Kenny Lattimore
In a perfect world
One we've never known
We would never need
To face the world alone
They can have their world
We'll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But somewhere in my secret heart

I know love will find a way
Anywhere I go, I'm home
If you are there beside me
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I was so afraid
Now I realize
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies
There's a perfect world
Shining in your eyes

And if only they could feel it, too
The happiness I feel with you
They'd know love will find a way
Anywhere we go, we're home
If we are there together
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I know love will find a way
Anywhere I go, I'm home
If we are there together
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way
I know love will find a way
I know love will find a way

here are some reasons why i LOVE my brother :
1. he cant sing for nuts (haha makes me sound better)
2. he dares to ask for nuggets with no skin (the brown part)
3. he stands up for me
4. he is taller and bigger (so he does all the work)
5. he cant spell (haha and when he does its darn funny)
6. he is DARN funny in some ways
7. he lets me hit him (as hard as i like)
8. he lets me use the comp when i want
9. he is the sexiest person alive
10. he will always be MY brother (forever mine!)

hahaha
even though im sometimes not nice to my bro
i actually lovee him alot!
hahaha
just that he gets on my nerves sometimes
and my family is bias about him

i thank god for him
hahaha
he promised me today
that he would take care of me forever
and wont let anyone bully me
cause im smaller than him
aww so sweet right!
hahahaha