people normally say that fairytales and dreams dont come true. but to me if you really believe, it will come true. im just proud to say that fairytales do happen and i believe in fairytales!

maybe reading too many fairytales have made me go crazy over fairytales. haha its good to think young again! haha maybe there will be a fairytale in my life! haha waaa FAT HOPE! haha!

ycom meeting yesterday. okay la. haha hanmae keep disturbing me. and gab chee didnt know that the meeting was confirmed and had to rush down from school haha. anyway meeting was good and wells erm hope this ycom will be a good one!

whole body aching from 1 1/2 days of karate! haha can die man! haha but this japanese guy came to teach us so must go. dont wana miss the opportunity! haha wells i LOVE karate! hahahaha!

am i really that bad? why is everything that comes out of your mouth insulting me? do you know that everything you say stabs my heart? so what if i am short? i love it! and i did not do anything to you so why must you do this? come on la you are one year younger than me and you are taller. so what if you are smart? haha i dont give a damn! if you want to keep insulting me wells then you can f*** off.

this whole week or whats ended is soooo haii. school sucks and wells life just sucks. thanks to those people who made it sucky. you really made my day. because of you i have not heard one good things said to me. thanks

the art exhibition outing is the best. instead of going there to look at art pieces, we went to buy sushi and ate it at the staircase like beggers. haha we were having a goood time! then we went to cheers and bought ice-cream to eat. haha we did not even look at the art pieces la! haha anyway had a very fun outing. we had to wait 1 hour for the blimey bus and then when we got onto it i started disturbing keefe who was sitting beside me. haha he is soooo funny la! haha!

anyway school sucks now and wells there is like so much to do and im like stressed up. gotta sleep now mum nagging haha! byebye!

exams are almost here! wow another week of mugging! haha wells watta do? singapore stresses all its students with lots of homework and stuff haha. too bad we were born in singapore. hope i do well for my exams! but for chinese cannot say la. no hope one haha if i pass that will be a miracle because look at my chinese teacher now! HE SUCKS MAN. only talk to himself people sleep he also dont know! haha sooo stupid. and that day he forgot that we had lesson and we had 2 free periods! haha!

today yf was okay la. with this duno what game! haha maybe next time ycom do games it will be better! haha then carol didnt come so we joined the sec 4 girls for biblestudy. then i didnt feel really good cause of blah and blah so i wasnt enthu. haha i was like dead there!

anyway after that went to hanmae to j8 and had pasta mania! haha! at pasta mania we talked about king's voices and how much we missed it. yesterday i watched it and i cried! i really cried cause i was thinking what happened to everyone in king's voices? all the freidnships we built and broke. then i was thinking about blah and haii i kept crying! anyway really missed king's voices especially the musical! really really hope that we can have another musical! but wells the chances are very very slim. like maybe about 5% only.

anyway if we cant have then we cant have haha. soo gotta go and study! bye!

We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

It is time we are to ascend
for we have reached the territory of a best friend.

But friendships break even the best of ones
then all me have established becomes undone.
Your job as my angel is then complete
because you have left me with only my pen and sheet.
I am now forced to record what I feel to something unlike you and I,
it's not real.
I'm talking to myself, every single word
I write to paper but what I'm saying goes left unheard.

All this because of you my angel, you are no longer beside me
though I beg and pleaour friendship just wasn't meant to be.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever...

because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never...

this is to marion lee

my life is just nothing but hell and pain. i dont know what to do! i need time!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPONGEE!


haha i still like calling you sponge. anyway one year older one year wiser! sounds familar eh? haha anyway ur prezzie still with me! haha erm thanks alot. got too much to thank you. haha erm ur 14! haha older already! old spongee! haha! luv ya lots lots! love ya as many times as a sponge has many holes!

marion: i found it hard to forgive you and trust you. both of us are in the wrong and im sorry for whatever i did. but i just need time to think over what has been happening over the years. we knew each other since we were babies. and the rest of the years were smooth for our friendship. then when i was p4 i met claire at the musical done by ARPC she came to church and all of us got to know her and claire and i were very very good friends. then charis fan came along. the 4 of us were best of friends. but when we were p6 claire and you drifted away from charis and i and wells thats when misunderstandings started to happen. last year we didnt even talk much and then came yf camp 2005 where many things happened. wells charis and i had many talks during that camp and i got to know bout what has been going on with claire and you. that time i was very sad and confided in someone. that person is now my biggy bro. anywaythings soon became better when you said you were sorry and i said i was sorry. but when the 2 of us were okay claire's attitude towards me became weird and soon i was afraid of her. then wells after church camp when she came back wells i felt let down and when you told me you didnt wana talk to me because you didnt like hm, josh and charis i felt very angry and felt that if you dont think that they are your friends wells i dint think i was worthy to be your friend and now we are like this.


wells i just need time to think over what has happened. im sorry charis i just need sometime and marion this is really very serious and i dont want to make the mistake of a lifetime. charis i totally agree that opportunities dont come knocking twice but i dont want to grab that opportunities without thinking. i need to talk to someone im really sorry to the both of your. marion i like the change in you i mean your fashion sense and its not about you that we are like that. so dont blame yourself kay?

wells the week is sooo tiring! haii thats why i didnt blog so frequently. i have promised my self to study hard so that i can go to a good class. good news! i have no more detention! haha thats because im a good girl! haha i had no detention for 1 week already! good improvement! haha!


i think im going crazy i keep thinking what is god's intention of letting us have friendships and relationships only to some leading to heartbreak and anger? anyway whatever god's intention is wells he knows that this is the best for us.


~je'taime~

Lecture
Harangue of words, numbers,
Flying by, over tables and tables,
On which our faces lie.


Drooping heads, lifeless souls.
Slipping into alternate realities,
As water, meets paper.


The bell rings,
Almost unnoticeable amidst
Her shrill monotony.


Across the room, heads slowly rise,
Like a wave in the sea of black.
Eagle-like eyes eyeing the exit sign.


Like lunatics just released
From our asylum, we dash out,
Into the bright redeeming light of day.


erm my cuz wrote this poem and i think he is a genius. i swear i like the poem haha its so funny. talks alot about the real me in school. haha. anyway back to school just sucks. but wells at least we get to learn stuff and also meet up with friends. haii but to me the best time is always the time when we are with the people we love.


omigosh seriously josh, charis and hanmae can keep a secret BUT they cannot stop disturbing me. haii man. haha wa lao then very paiseh haha. anyway erm just dont wana tell him cause very paiseh. and wells i hope the people who know just SHUT UP about it haha.


~walking down lover's lane with you is just like a fairytale~

omgomgomg this is a must blog! my cat is back! yipee! my mum opened the door and my cat ran in! soooo happy! haha turn of events haha! just happy cat is back! i missed her so much! haha! anyway she is as fat as usual.


who cares about 2 posts in 6 hours

this is in loving memory of my fur ball ; brat MY cat. she didnt die but the stupid pest control took her away. if i find out which pest control took her away i swear i will strangle them with my bare hands .how can they take brat away she has a collar y'know! i made that collar for her last year and now she is gone and so is the collar. then my mum told me that maybe its the stray dogs who took her away. stupid stupid stray dogs. thats why i hate dogs. they take away my precious cat! whatever happened to my cat and whoever did it im sooo gona make them bring my cat back. haii i want my cat back!


erm nothing much happened just that i miss my cat. so dont feel like blogging now. :(

argh! im sick! sheesh anyway hope i can dont go school tomorrow! haha anyway today school did not even do anything cause ms tan and ms aida never come. anyway i was sleeping the whole day cause im like dying whole body is sick sick sick.


i made a bet with charis on sunday. charis remember the bet? haha if you win i will treat you, hanmae and josh to a meal EACH. but if i win you will have to treat me and only me to a meal! dont tell anyone about the bet! haha shssssh. haha.


omg i just have this empty feeling inside me when im not with my yf friends. haha anyway just wana say to charis, josh and hanmae dont be afraid over * you know what i mean*. cause since we have come so far just chiong ahead!! anyway cya guys saturday 3 plus at macs!


shucks the doctor at kk hospital gave me so much medicine and told me if i dont take it regularly i will have to take the medicine for life double shucks. she said i have "full house" haha means i have a problem with my eyes, nose, skin, lungs and even blood shucks again. omg im soo sick! haha all my friends will have to take care of me! haha well i HOPE they will do that!


~i just cant live without my friends!~

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry for putting you guys in a spot.but thanks guys for standing by me even though this was serious.


thanks charis, joshua, hanmae and aaron.for you know what haha.sorry others confidential!i really treasure guys like the four of you.and special thanks to charis, josh and hanmae for all the time we talked.haha.remember kfc!haha.will always tresure the time we spent!you guys rock!haha.


omg omg i typed something in the wrong convosation and shit sonething came out.people involved please SHUT UP!