school is starting
mann
that means O LEVELS
i cant believe im sooo old already
and i dont even act like im gonna be 16 next year
goshh
im not ready!

HELP HELP HELP!

thats christmas with my dad's side of the family
haha
and my bro is the uber gross one
even though the family is weird
i still love my cousins!

my blog was dead
so now im reviving it
been darn tired these few days
lack of sleep
and too much "partying"
and i cant believe school is starting soon
i still got lots and lots of work to do

hmmm
im feeling like shit
some things are getting really stupid
and i dont know why
like my mp3 earpiece is screwed
like my mum is a little nutsy sometimes
and i cant feel the christmas spirit

i cant find the christmas spirit
maybe its because im not looking forward to next year
sheesher

going for camp tmrw
not very enthu as i want to be
just cant get the mood
mannn
and im dreading packing
RAWR

going to be in camp
till saturday
then busy busy busy
mann
where did the hols go?
shit o levels next year
B-SHIT

im soo confused

~ im on facebook!

cant take it anymore
sometimes i really dont want to go for basic camp
cause i dont want to see someone
its soo stupid
RAWR

have been sick for very long already
almost a week
keep having running nose
and fever keeps coming and going
sighh
i hate the cold weather
im always sick
soo unlucky

today went sentosa
even though im sick
sighh
was bored to the max
the only thing i enjoyed was the LUGE
but in the end
it was spoilt by some
STUPID AH BENGS
who tried to irritate me
my driving so close to me
and suddenly braking infront of me
so tempted
to get out of the cart
and kick their peanuts
sheesh
no balls people

RAWR
why do most people have NO balls??!!
maybe ASEAN games now
then they need balls
for bowling, table tennis and many more events
thats why some people have no balls
all taken away

went swimming
with pearl, her sister, sister's friend and 2 cousins
mann its sooo tiring
cause have to carry their floats for them and everything
cause the cousins are so young
dead tired
pearl so owes me a mos meal
then went to pearls house
watched 200 pounds beauty
and...
i cried
yeah mann
its soo touching
sighh
haha
im an emotional person!

AWW MANN
im like super duper tired
from carrying kids all day
and running to catch them
mann
sounds like i went to help out in a child-care centre
haha
but i went to help my mum
with her creative writing stuff
super stress mann
since my mum is sometimes a little unreasonable
sighh
she doesnt realise that sometimes the little things
she says
can make someone feel really really bad

ouch
whole body aching
shall go to sleep noww

// i think i need a HUG!

aww mann
i screwed up music today
was leading
and then before today
desmond had to tell me he was not coming
so i panicked
then today
TRIED
to practice
but didnt get to it
and then i was sooo mervous
that i thought i needed an asthma puff
mannn
it was so embarassing
and when i prayed in the end
i got stuck for words
and then had to end abruptly
with a big big
AMEN!!
mann my face was sooo red
hahaha

but i will do better for camp music
hahaha
i can do it
wheeeee

~ me and my big AMEN

So Close - Jon Mclaughlin

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

~ still lots of grey areas eh?