Sprained my ankle on Wednesday. Why? Cause I fell down the stairs. Haha cool right. Super KLUTZ as my cousin calls me. Anyway I dont really feel like blogging cause my leg hurts like mad.

ANYWAY......... Question of the Century : What happened to your leg ah?
Answer : Ohh I felt bored. So I took a hammer and smashed my leg. COOL right.

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask
How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Touching and meaningful. Its written by this girl who has got cancer and has 6 months left to live. Read it and think. I think it applies to everyone. And this girl has got sheer talent.

Super tired! Had like school Speech Day yesterday. And I was an official SEAT-WARMER!. Woot. Sit until backside pain okayy. Haha anyway cleared up misunderstandings with Mummy already. She say whatever I do as long as its right she gives me her blessings. Haha i wonder if its too late to as for a drum-set. HEE!

OMG! I just ate like crab and I'm smelling CRABBBY. Haha. Tmrw is SUNDAY! Wheeee! But that means that Monday is coming and my coursework is due. And I am like stuck. SHEEET!

Total sian today. Tried cooking my dish : Chicken Apple Saute for F&N. I choose it for my examination dish. Now i guess i gotta change it. Cause it really sucks. Yahh its like very plain looking and it tastes weird. Haha anyone got any ideas? Cause i dont know what to cook. Sheesher.

Anyway its Speech Day tmrw. Im released from school at 10.20am! Wheee! Haha but got english summary test tmrw. Hated test! Sighh and now i have like pimples all over my face! ARGHH! Hahaha must take care mann. After i look like the moon sooo many holes.

And tmrw is like friday. So fast. Sighh got so many questions i want to ask mummy but i dare not. I dont want us to argue again then in the end she quarrel with daddy. HOW?! Its like important questions. AHHHHHHHHHHH!

i just changed my blogskin! haha and i think i shall revert back to my old style of typing. the press-enter-at-every-line thingy is soo not working. ohh yahh thanks MI XUE for telling me how to change my blogskin. i like this blog skin. its like much much plainer but i think its nicee! haha and its soo done by me. love the grey, it depicts my life noww. as exciting and lively as the colour grey. hurray people! haha.

26 more weeks to o'levels! & 13 days to MYE!

sometimes i wonder whats happening
we really have not talked
like heart to heart
for a looong time
i feel like im losing you as a friend
i really hope i am not
but i cant just help feeling
that our differences
is making us like that
im not sure whether you really
go home to study
or your hanging out
with your other friends
sighh
i really want to spend more time with you
like when we used to take the bus together
i miss those times

total sian
today had like slight food poisoning
so didnt go school
yeahh
but then stay at home very weird
like nothing to do

anyway had familympics at vivo city yesterday
formed a team with krystl and christopher
my cousins
and krystl's boyfriend leon
and dwight
super sad mann
we actually won third
but didnt win the money
cause something happened
anyway
i think if they were fair
about everything
then we would have won first
but nevermind la
we had lots of fun!
wheeeee~~

brain dead already

after YOU said those words
you made me feel like
the biggest F*CKER in the whole damn world
you had to pick on me
and make my life terrible
thanks alot
and if your aim was to make me angry
congrats you had reached your aim
im freaking pissed
all thanks to you
great job

i just realised its not all that easy
to remove all these masks
i have been wearing them for too long
that i cant remember the real me anymore
this is freaking sad
and its shit hard to go back to being me
when people just make you feel
like the biggest idiot in the world
and when people
tell you that your never good enough

shoot me
i dont give a damn anymore

this is gonna be a looooog post
FIRSTLY,
erm after thinking about it
i think i owe my class 4e2 an apology
dont think you guys would read this
but still sorry
for not being enthu for the class cheer
and not going for practice
i guess i dont have the right attitude about it
and im really sorry guys

SECONDLY,
im like shit high in homework
everytime i want to do my work
i just get soo distracted
i mean im not the only one who has lots of homework
and everyone is suffering too
but i honestly cant do this
i know o levels is not something i can quit
i cant quit
but i cant do this anymore either
its slowly eating me up
and its so painful everyday

THIRDLY,
i think im extremely funny
i mean monday to friday
im like antisocial to my class
unless your like the people i hang out with
then i admit i do act a little different
then saturday im like d-e-a-d
rushing here and there
not much time to care about my emotions
then sunday
im happy-go-lucky clare
then when i reach home on sunday
i feel like i just faked the whole of my sunday
its just THAT feeling you get

FOURTHLY,
i feel that im not spending enough time
with my family
yeah sure im home most of the time
cause its either school or home now
but then when im home im in my room
doing my own stuff
i dont know if my parents can feel it
but i just dont feel that family bond anymore
except on certain occasions
im not sure but maybe its because
my emotions are all like spent during the day
that im emotionless
when it comes to my family
its so emotionally draining

this is a depressing post
but i need to post this
esp the apology to my class
for being soo antisocial
but i hope you guys "love" me
for who i am
the clare who has different faces
thanks guys for being soo 4e2-ish

and for my BASIC peeps
ermm i know that i do tell
some of you my problems and all
and you guys are honestly concerned about me
but every week
when i come home
i just feel so weird and fake
cause i know that sunday
i was just wearing a "happy" mask
like i have been doing most of my church days
for those who i shared my problems with
THANK YOU GUYS
and i have decided to stop
putting on all these masks
so that people would know the real me
and i that when im alone
and reviewing my day
i wont feel like i have deceived myself
and all you guys
soo yeahh
its gonna be a big leap for me
cause im quite used to hiding my emotions
from most people
i want to try this
so that i can answer to myself next time

coming to the end of the post!
haha this is like a big thank you
to my one and only fei zhai : -

PEARLYN TAN!~
hey girl
thanks for always being here for me
like always
even though we are always busy
i know your there for me