i will cast all of my cares upon You
and lay all of my burden
down at Your feet
and anytime
i dont know
what to do
i will cast all of my cares upon You

and the picture doesnt mean anything
i just like the picture
and im as sane as clare can be
(which is saner than most people)

today had a good time shooting paper bullets at people
haha
its just so fun to relieve childhood memories
when i used to hit people with the bullets
MUAHAHAHA

ive been thinking about stuff
on the way home from church on the bus
i realised its like
im living a double life
like i can be sad at one moment
and then happy at the next
it makes me so so UNPREDICTABLE
i dont know when i will just blow with anger
nor do i know when i will go high
and piss everyone off
i doubt its mood swing
cause when i have mood swings its really bad

so welcome to my double life
i can be clare the happy one time
and clare the grumpy another time
at this point of time
if you wanna sever ties with me
i dont mind
cause its not easy befriending
a person who has a double life
i dont blame you
i actually blame myself
SIGH

hey
do you know when you hurt
i hurt too?

everything will turn out well in the end
you gotta believe in that
cause i believe in that too
trust that god will bring you through this difficult time
trust him
everything wil turn out well

oh yes!
finally my chinese paper is over!!
haha
and i maybe able to pass
if ... pigs do actually fly
HAHA
im a PROFESSIONAL in chinese okay

gotta really study these days
so last minute okay
hahahaha
but better late than never!

im feeling much much better
it like i have talked all my hatred out
thanks luke for talking to me ytd
sorry if i was grumpy and irritating
and its like
i feel that i had a little talk with god
and he has taken all my hurt away
maybe thats why im feeling happier
now i know why
people say trust in the lord
and you will find peace

Ephesians 4:2-3
2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.

why do i care so much when it doesnt even concern me?
even if i cared it wouldnt do much
haii i have decided to stop caring
cause it doesnt concern me at all
and whatever happens it wouldnt affect my life
so i dont care anymore
i mean its like you may get mad that im so busybody
and i wouldnt wanna get angry
because i cared and you misunderstood me
i can already picture it in mind
you shouting at me
and i defending myself
and in the end,
both walk aweay feeling hurt
its just not worth it
so i cant be bothered anymore
but if you wanna talk
im here

- i hurt myself, so you cant

todat woke up at the most amazing time
which was ... 7.15am
and yes that means late for school
but luckily it was my second time this semester
so i just had to run around the carpark
2 times
haha so malu
and i was like breathless for a long time
im soo unfit
sheesh

anyway i just cant stand SOME people
im just not saying that person's name
as i cant stand even typing it out
the person so BHB lo
go and see other people's report books
even if she didnt see mine
at least respect others privacy
bitch
if she had seen mine
im gonna slap her face
till it turns blood red
mei you jia jiao de bitch

im soo tired
last night i was at my cousin's grandma funeral
helping to fold the offering paper
then i only went home at like 4.30am
and had to wake up at 7.30am
cause my other cousin's wedding
the tea ceremony
wa lao
darn tired
and tonight got the wedding dinner
waaa sleepy man!
RAWR