omg
i just told marion who i like
she better not sabo me
that BARTENDER-to-be
haha

haii
but the guy i like
thinks that im irritating
and immature
haii
how?
marion wants to ask him
haha
may as well kill me
sobsobsob
wells thats what life is right?

haha
at least i have friends like
MARIONlee , LUKElim , DANIELtan
chiaHANMAE , CHARISfan and many more
like that i wont die
hahahahaha

You Are 44% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

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so im actually a sad person
all that laughy smiley face
is nothing
but a fake
i guess what makes me so down
is firstly
i feel like im being ostracised in school
maybe its because i dont speak chinese
or maybe cause
i dont act like the other girls in school
secondly
its results
i practically failed everything
except for english
which i breezed through it
haii
i hate being alone

i really do hate being alone =(

my life is sooo over
i just realised what i have gotten myself into
my whole june hols is burned out
and i joined stupid ndp
which takes up like every saturday

and i did not do well for my exams at all
if i had not studied
i would have blamed myself
but i studied this time
so who can i blame?
no one
im just supposed to die
right?

still sick and extremely moody

2 more days of exams
and 3 more papers to go!
i can do it!

not been sleeping well these few days
dont know why
i guess its the exams
hope after its over i can sleep!

yesterday lead songs at yf
firstly we were chased out of the store room
and had no place to go
so we went to a classroom
then mr daniel tan was late
when he came still show attitude
i kept irritating abel the whole time
haha sooo fun
muhahahaha

i was sooo nervous la
everytime lead songs like that
but thanks to the people
who encouraged me!
haha

wanna go and snooze now!
byebye

COCKROACHES ARE HERE TO INVADE EARTH!
they are like everywhere near my house
on the ground floor
near the dustbin
EVERYWHERE!
i couldnt even get home
without screaming for a while
P.S im afraid of cockroaches!
im gonna take deodorant and a lighter
and BURN ALL OF THEM!
muahahahaha
so watch out cockroaches
CLARE IS GONNA BURN YA'LL

He Opens a Window by Ronna Jordon

When doubts and disappointment
Hide the morning sun
When all my dreams have ended
All my songs are sung
His spirit soars within me
Every doubt is gone
I see a new horizon, and sing a brand new song

Chorus:
For in His perfect timing
Up ahead a light is shining
And I know the dawn will be arriving very soon.
When God closes the door
He opens a window,
He opens a window so I can see
He's workin it out the very best for me
He opens a window just for me

When every road i travel
Leads back to where I've been
When fears about tomorrow
Settle deep within
He gives me new direction
And takes the fear away
He opens up the future
And brings a brand new day, new day

[ Repeat chorus twice ]

this song is from the bible story
Joseph the Dreamer
i have the disk of the musical
and i like it alot alot
the whole thing is about his trust in god
he trusted god his whole life

i really hope that someday i would be like Joseph
trusting in god all the time
these days i only trust in god and remember him
when i need him
i feel that i should not do that
cause its like treating god
very unfairly
he looks after me all the time
and even watches out for me
but i only remember him sometimes

so i hope that i will change to be better!
and trust in god all the time!

i know im evil

but i just have to do this

its priceless

her new haircut is nice

but i feel it makes her look very very

NEAT!

haha now i will look scruffy and messy

haha

thanks marion lee

haha!

NEAT haircut! ( mind the pun )

here is the preeeety girl!

serious you look very neat now

and its a compliment!

for people out there

this is how she looked last time

ANYWAY

after getting the shocking news

that marion chopped her hair

( take a breath )

im fianlly here to blog!
haha
my blog died like many many months ago!

im reviving it
but now its exams

sooooo

im officially on

HIATUS!

i know its dumb

i just revived it

and now im on hiatus

haha

but i will blog even though im on hiatus

but it wont be interesting

just short and boring!

haha

byebye

i just came across a whole box of letters that i have kept throughout the years.
i have never felt so loved before!
after reading all the letters
i realised that i am very very fortunate to have such friends
and also family!
im glad that i found this box
when im soo down
its really picked me up
to know that so many people actually cared about me

this is to the people in my life
who have made it soo fabulous
( no names mentioned ) :

my life is fabulous because of people like you
thanks
i really thank god for you
even though people dont like me
and often make my life miserable,
people like you were always there for me
double thanks
you complete my life
you help me when you can
things are better because of you
triple thanks
i always hoped that fairytales would happen
but they were right before my eyes!
you take my nonsense
and listen to me rant
many many thanks!

love you guys!

HELLO(:
clare is currently too lazy to blog.
so yeah, she made the nice girl who has LOADS of work to do
to help her blog.
how evil of her.
and she took my friendster pic and tried to blackmail me))):
and i have no idea if she lied to me bout giving my number away))):
i bet its lie. cos she always lie to me.
anyway, i'm supposed to talk about her wonderful, fabulous life.
which i know nothing of,
cos she never tells me anything.
so there really isnt much for me to say.
just that she is ALWAYS free.
but too LAZY to blog.
i'm jealous of such free ppl mann.

ohoh, i'm supposed to go study already!
so byebye!(:
loves;
marion(:

Superman (It's Not Easy)
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.

i have seriously not been posting
haha
im seriously sorry
just been too busy with life
and fighting the sickness
that allows you to skip school
and that makes you think weird
*flu*

its been a really bad time for me
during chinese new
my cousins from my mum's side
treat me like dirt
and my cousins from my dad's side
im so glad they love me
even though we dont see each other much
it great to talk to them
everytime we meet
thanks <3s!

i like that song
superman
by five for fighting
its nice!
even though the main singer sounds gay
haha
at least i have something to do
when my cousins treat me like dirt

You've been my sister for many years,
We've laughed together
And shed some tears.
We've had harsh words,
And pulled some hair
But against the world
We are a terrific pair.
Our times together are very few,
I just want to say
I LOVE YOU!

haha
marion i found this online
gosh
it really talks about the whole time i knew you
all the laughter
all the times i hated you
all the times i felt like flicking your fat
and the time crying
because i thought you had found a better friend
but in the end,
haha
I STILL LOVE YOU!

today late for school
so that meant detention class
sheesh
anyway the whole day was bad
and i lost my e maths textbook!
like wa lao
if i tell mummy sure die lo
haii so i shall use my money
and go buy a new one.

anyway DC was okay
i did my homework
and did a little reflection
on my life

after listening to the what jessy said yesterday
i feel that i have not been living my life properly
but everytime i try to change
i fail
then i would be too lazy to pick myself up again
sometimes i wonder
why am i doing this when i dont gain anything out of this
and i never get an answer
i try to be a good friend
and a good christian example
so from now on i must
jia you!


and see people
i do post!
haha just that i dont do it so often now
cause im busy!
byebye