Written on: 3 November 2009

Seeing your classmates outrightly shun you, purposely changing seats to avoid sitting with you - PRICELESS

I may not look like I care about the way people look at me,but it really hurts. You don't know me, but you judge me. I feel like a caged animal put in the spotlightfor people to criticise and humiliate. I'm human too, I have feelings. The feeling of sitting alone in class is too painful to describe. Its like I don't have friends that I can call my own. All I want to know is what have I done to deserve this. Am I too anti-social, not pretty enough, or just too weird for some people. It hurts so bad, but I don't think you guys even bother to care about my feelings. Because I'm only the anti-social girl, sitting alone at the back of the class. Hope you're happy, idiots.

I believe in faries, pixies, stardust and all this magical. I believe that when you put your tooth under the pillow, the toothfairy will exchange it for a golden coin. I believe that in the middle of every flower, is a fairy baby waking up every morning. I believe in cute, old garden gnomes. I believe in fairy rings. I believe in the magic of stardust, that it can make all wishes come true.

But most importantly, I believe in the unconditional love that God has showed me, and the love between his people.

Rain,
A refreshing shower,

A heavy downpour.

A hint of thunder,

A spark of lightning.

Windows closing,

Umbrellas going up.

Two friends playing together,

Memories that last forever.

(c) ngsiahying

My eyebrows may not be perfectly arched,

My lips might look a little too parched,

My eyes could hold a tad too much fear,

My looks may not land me a modeling career,

My clothing sometimes doesn’t follow the trend,

My personality, you may not comprehend,

My fingernail polish might slightly be chipped,

My life may not follow the teenager script,

My skin tone may seem a little too pale,

My habits might make me appear rather frail,

However, I’d rather be ugly through and through,

If perfect meant I was just like you.

(c) LemonyLessay

It hurts to think about you and all the memories we had together. The strong bond of friendship we had. When I'm lonely, I think about you so much that sometimes I could feel that your right beside me. Sometimes I just stare at the computer screen and wish that you would come online. Msn is getting so over-rated now. It's either used for arguing with people, or disturbing them.

Anyway I hope that you are happy wherever you are. Must be pretty nice up there. Hope you miss me, cause I really miss you too. I simply wish you were here for me to rant to. Its not easy to find a friend that listens to you. I got a new song on my ipod. Its 'Making Memories Of Us'. I keep listening to it on loop, because it reminds me of you. MISS YOU! D:

To all guys out there,

Please don't hurt my friends.

Don't rip out their hearts,

And throw it against the wall.

They are just innocent people,

Seeking love in this cruel world.

It breaks my heart,

When they come crying to me,

And telling me all the things you did.

'Cause if you hurt them,

I will ensure you never forget me.

Don't even bother trying,

Cause if you do,

You'll never be able to try again.

Thanks :]

If you think you understand me,

Think again.

If you think you like me,

Think again.

If you think I like you,

Think again.

If you think I'm happy,

Think again.

If you think I worry too much,

Think again.

If you think I have friends,

Think again.

If you think I'm a lonely soul,

Think again.

If you think I'm in love,

Think again.

If you think you know me,

Think again,

Or just don't think at all.

(c) ngsiahying

Hello,

Quit asking me if I'm alright. Because it is so obvious I'm not. How can I be alright, when so many things are going against me? It feels like my heart has been picked up and thrown against a wall.

I never expected you to be such a bitch. I had always thought you were someone who cherished friendship. But I was wrong, dead wrong. You made use of me and then left me to clean up the mess.

But I got to thank you for opening my eyes to this part of life. Where friends pick you up and throw you against the wall. Now I know how shallow and how blinded you are.

Goodbye girl.

I guard things most precious

In a heart made of glass,

Its guarded by my doubts and fears

Do you dare to pass?

If you do somehow break though

To my most precious thoughts,

And those its clear I hold so dear

Whether happy or distraught.

Would you give me peace of mind

And stay to me so true,

Or would you grasp onto my heart

And shatter it in two?

My fragile state, my dreary mind

Sealed away for eternity,

Lest you dare to venture in

And find my heart’s key

Approaching that I hold so dear

Please don’t dare leave me torn,

My heart in pieces on the ground

And my spirit so forlorn.

deviantart - =Amphy (c)

Everytime I strum my blue guitar, my heart cracks a little and it bleeds. I always wonder when would it be when my heart would not suffer anymore. However, I never want to forget about you. Because when you were around, it was the best time of my life. You made me whole, you lit up my life and showed me how to love. But most importantly, you taught me how to smile.

When you gave me your blue guitar, it just made me feel like the most special person in the whole world. You whispered in my ear that you would always be there everytime I play the guitar. But when you left me, I did not have the strength to pick up the guitar and play. It just hurt so badly everytime I thought of you.

But boy, I have finally got the strength and courage to pick my my guitar. I always pray that you could be beside me and helping me. But all I hope now, is that you are proud of me when I make an improvement. Cause everytime I strum the guitar now, I feel the love you had for me and my heart just heals.

I still love you.