" HAKUNA MATATA - no worries "

But unfortunately there seems to be like this super thick cloud of worry hanging in the air all the time. And I'm sure its not mainly cause of O levels. Even though I have not been studying. Its more like everything is sooo worrying. Sighh.

~ SHORT POST , and even shorter life

I think I am officially going insane. Looking at my phone the whole day, calling Lekshmi during class and hanging up, totally destroying my foolscap cover and more. Im going to grow mad and like maybe blow or something.

Today's horoscope!
Gemini - You are feeling hopeless about getting through that one person, but just put it off for a few days and things should settle down.

When I read this in the newspapers today. I was like shocked. It sounds soo true. I mean sometimes horoscopes are crap - according to Luke. But this time it seemed pretty real! I mean for those who know what happen, it does apply in almost everyway. Soo yeah.

Honestly I dont know if anything means anything to you. I mean I know better than to like believe what you said. But I gave whatever you said some thought and I sorta hoped you would be there. Wells I guess I was being stupid or something. Sighh nothing more to say. Just that Im disappointed and I guess its my fault.

Super tired today. Lead songs for Basic today. Mann my voice totally screwed up. Hope that next week it would be better. Was mostly distracted cause I was hoping that what i hoped for would happen. But nehh it didnt. I was so ready to strangle someone. =(

Got lots of things to blog about. But no more motivation cause Im feeling =(

I'm quitting drum soon. Sadded but the timing cannot make it when ARPC moves. Sighh ... Then again I got find a new school. Haha or ask my parents to buy me a drumset. Then self practice. Hmmm thats another idea.

Going for karate noww!

1 more hour before I meet Lekshmi, Liana and Sheela for the CIP library thingy. Heard from many people its like damned. Cause the people over there treat them like shit and everything. Hmmm hope today will be like better. Haha no harm in hoping right?

Like I sorta hope for many many things to happen. Sighh I wonder us humans must go through hurt and everything. Its just a waste of time and energy. =(

Anyway hope I can still fit into my school uniform. Haha ironing it now and feeling that I dont think I can wear them. Sian mann. Haha still got to wear them for like 4 months plus before the dreaded O levels are over.

Its like freezing cold over here at my house. Sudden cold. Anyway was supposed to go blood donating with Mummy and Ting Wei today. But Mummy had some problem with her work. So did not go in the end. Haha actually I was like pretty freaked to go. But maybe for the sake of others ... its worth considering. But that is only if my blood is applicable for the donating. Cause it may not be cause I take lots of medicine.

clare is finding love ... will you help her?

Feeling mega melancholic. After talking to dear Pearlyn. But had lots of fun today! Went ice-skating with church people ... I didnt fall! Have not been for ice-skating since Greg left, which is like months. Sigh. Really miss him and stuff. But have not heard from him for like months. Maybe he has forgot about me. I dont even know why...

I'm suffering from post-camp depression. Miss camp, miss the people there and miss the food. Yeahh. This camp was weird I guess. Not like any other church camp I have been to. Firstly, this camp made me think alot about the definition of friendship. I also felt the need to rebuild old friendships which have been dying off. Then at the end of camp, I realised that friendship is something like love. I always thought it was 2 different things. But now I have come to realise that both friendship and love needs lots of time, patience, commitment, sacrifice and lots more.

Secondly, I realise that the sec 1-3s are cool. As in I cant find another word to describe them. Haha spent lots of time in camp with them and got to know many of them better and also strengthened many childhood friendships. The older people werent too bad either! They like really take care of you and stuff. Even though they do tease people alot!

Lastly, through this camp I learnt that God is the God of consolation. That if we are to rely on Him. Also that we all have a need to be reconciled to God. That we all have to ask ourselves this question : Are we ready to face judgement before God?

Also to Marion, Charis and Hanmae, sorry about the stuff during camp. I am really glad we had the heart to heart talk. Even though I was very very reluctant. I did not realise that over these few years that the broken relationship between Marion and I have caused so much pain. Not only to Marion and I but also to many other people around us. I also did not realise that it was affecting me and that I could carry on going to church and acting as if nothing is wrong. Thank you to the sec 1-3 girls and Yiling who made me realise it. I always kept thinking about the happy moments I had with Marion but never thought of mending the broken relationship between us and to continue the happy moments. I guess all these years Marion and the others have been a huge part of my life andwith the broken relationship and everything, I sorta felt broken too. Big thanks to Yiling who coordinated the talk and I am glad that Marion and I were able to share some of the things that was causing us hurt. Hope that slowly ouor friendship would be mended and become stronger through this difficult part. Also pray that whatever pain that both of us have been feeling would be erased away and that God would help us to become stronger in Him as friends.

WHEEE! I'm going church camp tmrw. But honestly dont know what to expect from it. Hmmm maybe if I dont expect anything at all then whatever happens would then be a surprise! COOL! Gosh and I have not packed yet. And I take ages to pack. Like I have to make a list of things and stuff. I'm so primary school...shoot me.

Ohhh baked some chocolate chip cookies to bring to the camp. Dont think they will finish but of course I hope they will do! =) Okay I got to go and pack now. Or I wont be able to sleep tonight! Ciao!