I'm suffering from post-camp depression. Miss camp, miss the people there and miss the food. Yeahh. This camp was weird I guess. Not like any other church camp I have been to. Firstly, this camp made me think alot about the definition of friendship. I also felt the need to rebuild old friendships which have been dying off. Then at the end of camp, I realised that friendship is something like love. I always thought it was 2 different things. But now I have come to realise that both friendship and love needs lots of time, patience, commitment, sacrifice and lots more.

Secondly, I realise that the sec 1-3s are cool. As in I cant find another word to describe them. Haha spent lots of time in camp with them and got to know many of them better and also strengthened many childhood friendships. The older people werent too bad either! They like really take care of you and stuff. Even though they do tease people alot!

Lastly, through this camp I learnt that God is the God of consolation. That if we are to rely on Him. Also that we all have a need to be reconciled to God. That we all have to ask ourselves this question : Are we ready to face judgement before God?

Also to Marion, Charis and Hanmae, sorry about the stuff during camp. I am really glad we had the heart to heart talk. Even though I was very very reluctant. I did not realise that over these few years that the broken relationship between Marion and I have caused so much pain. Not only to Marion and I but also to many other people around us. I also did not realise that it was affecting me and that I could carry on going to church and acting as if nothing is wrong. Thank you to the sec 1-3 girls and Yiling who made me realise it. I always kept thinking about the happy moments I had with Marion but never thought of mending the broken relationship between us and to continue the happy moments. I guess all these years Marion and the others have been a huge part of my life andwith the broken relationship and everything, I sorta felt broken too. Big thanks to Yiling who coordinated the talk and I am glad that Marion and I were able to share some of the things that was causing us hurt. Hope that slowly ouor friendship would be mended and become stronger through this difficult part. Also pray that whatever pain that both of us have been feeling would be erased away and that God would help us to become stronger in Him as friends.

WHEEE! I'm going church camp tmrw. But honestly dont know what to expect from it. Hmmm maybe if I dont expect anything at all then whatever happens would then be a surprise! COOL! Gosh and I have not packed yet. And I take ages to pack. Like I have to make a list of things and stuff. I'm so primary school...shoot me.

Ohhh baked some chocolate chip cookies to bring to the camp. Dont think they will finish but of course I hope they will do! =) Okay I got to go and pack now. Or I wont be able to sleep tonight! Ciao!

FOUNDATION PROGRAMME IS FIANLLY OVER! ( Jumps in the air & does a high kick ) This means I can sleep late and wake up late! Wheeee hahahaha. Then this whole holiday is mainly about eat, sleep, study and maybe maybe go out. High hopes but nehh gotta study. Or else all hopes will drop drop drop!

SIGHH I dont know why some people are such a pain in the neck. They just dont seem to understand that different people are different. Stupid people. So what if your DAMN BLOODY smart? Doesnt mean you can act big and push people around. Do that again and wait till i smack you. It may even be worth it even if i get like suspension or something. So ... BACK OFF BITCH.

Tmrw is the last day of foundation programme! The I'm going to sleep till I'm happy then get up and study! And I have been thinking about it. Dont really want to cut my hair lehh. Like very wasted. -_-

Gotta rush out F&N coursework and here I am blogging. So ciao!

IM 16 TODAY!

Yipeee! Im finally 16 today! And I got lots of presents. Haha so touched until want to cry. Cause people sooo nice. Ohhhhh I got these for my birthday!

Kelly - Ripples slipper!
Tammy - Spongebob underwear and handmade keychain! ( Gonna frame the underwear )
Charis and Marion - Sunflower and elephant toy!
Hanmae - Some movable toy with PURPLE hair!
Luke Lim - Drum putty! ( Hot pink somemore )

And moreee! Then went to eat dinner at Sakura with family. Haha eat until shiok shiok! But wont grow fat la. Haha anyway those who wished me ... THANK YOU!

Today's heat is kill-able. And to top it off. All I did today was do chinese - the most dreaded subject and the most un-fun. Anyway today's heat was bad and chinese was not so bad. Except for me not finishing my work. Haha cause I thought it was useless. Oh wells I still got 3 more days of intensive prep to go and 6 more days to O'levels chinese! Woot.

Hmmm I want to put photos...but my photos always come out f-ing weird. Going to ask MI XUE tmrw. Cause she is nice and she shares the same birthday as me - 25th May! (HINT!) Okay Im going out to eat now. Have not eaten since morning. Ciao!

My results are unsatisfactory. They show that I did not even study in the beginning and when I did try to study, it was hopeless. Mum's disappointed but not as much as I am in myself. All the answers I thought was correct turned out to be wrong. Things cannot continue like this. Otherwise I dont think I can continue my education. Cause I really did very badly.

But as much as I want to concentrate on studying, I just cant seem to do it. Its like so many things are on my mind. Like how I just lost a friend and seem to hate her now. I just cant seem to look her in the eye and say sorry for everything I have done. But now all I feel is hatred towards her. Like I never had a friend like her. What happened? I dont know either. But I dont think I have the energy to do anything about it as I am currantly happy with here I am. And if you are reading this, I have nothing more to say. Thanks for all the times we were good friends.

My mp3 is currantly with Nic for repair. Haha thank you. Anyway suddenly have this urge to go and cut my hair. Like short. Haha a little tired with long hair. Making me look a little old. And I have this currant obsession with SHORT hair and TATTOOS. I know that some people think that tattoos are wrong. But I think they are beautiful. Sorry if it differs from your ideas but yeahh. Its like an expression of who you are and your opinions.

Anyway collecting my results tmrw. Im nervous. I guess as long as i score at least an A for my english and a B for my E Maths Im happy. But of course a pass in Chinese would be the cherry on top!

I lost my beautiful red phone on Sunday. I'm currantly mourning the loss of my phone. I really want it back. But I know I will never get it back. Hope the person who took it would return it. Super slim chance but I'm still hoping. My phone is only 1 month old. I'm super heartbroken and super careless to leave it behind on the table. Shit me. Sighh now I'm using my old white phone. Its good but not as good as my red phone. I want it back. But I know I will never get it back. I can always get another phone but it is the information inside. All my pictures and my songs. Like some pictures are irreplacable and some things just mean a lot to me. But guess I will never get my phone back. Just my luck. Hope the person who took it would love it as much as I did.

1 more week of exams. Mann exams in the hall creep the hell out of me. Its like walking into some knid of slaughter house. Best if all I did not do like 60 over marks worth of questions for my A Maths Paper 2. Congrats to me. 1 more week, I can do this mann. Gotta study. But the most horrible thing in the end, is receiving the results. Haha thats pain to the outmost pain.

My ankle is out of the bandages! And I do not need to use the crutch anymore. YIPEE! But now my ankle is like still loose. When I shake it can hear the click click sound. Super cool can. Haha. But I'm very worried that when I do a kick in karate my ankle just like goes flying out or something. Gotta bandage it then. Haha.